gOne wiTh tHe Wind..

The weekend passed so quickly that i dun think i did anything at all.. Sat was out since afternoon for theory and went for stephanie's mini concert @ zouk in the everning. Free tix.. After that met six for dinner and was supposedly going to jb but i forgot to bring my passport.. And they went in like 1am in the morning??? crazy pple... Went home and rest.. Sunday.. my lazy day.. Went westmall anyway.. wanted to fix my addidas shoes but the cobbler can't fix it.. damn.. went looking for a battery charger.. cant find either.. heck. ended up grocery shopping again.. latest crave now is making beef patties..ha. Must be mad. Still can't find my oregano leaves. Went ntuc first cos i got the ntuc card but found out they dun sell beef there.. double damn.. still bought some stuff there and went back to west mall again to get my beef.. the queue is like hello kitty queue but i learnt to be patient and went thru it.. Just came back from ec from supper and soon i'm going to work again.. bleh.. Not enuff! My lazy bones said not enuff!






My first Retro Vegetarian Restaurant..






My supper..

ReADinG....

Currently reading this book that that teaches you to be a lil human... its called: If Life is a game, these are the stories.

*If everything in life were perfect, there would be little to learn. It is through adversity and challenge that we discover who we are. Some of us do very little with what we have while others do an enormous amount with hardly anything at all. Perhaps its the person who makes miracles happen and doesn't think twice that truly inspires us to not only be grateful for what we have, but who inspires us to transcend our limitations as well.

One of the late nites again..

Last movie of 2004-Kungfu Hustle. Cant tolerate somebody that is more crappy than me but nevertheless, it was crappy kindda funny. ha.

First movie of 2005-Meet the fockers. Another crappy one. But the focker family is cool. =) Not too bad.

First enrolment-Bike. Been thinking abt it for 3 years and finally its done. Maybe it will take me another 3 years to get my licence.heh..

Was talking to Gatsby. About the world, about the perceptions, about the disaster yet again. Maybe i should try dying of hunger or maybe freeze to death cos i am inhumane. The feeling of waiting to die and yet want to live. Only then i will understand what they are going thru. The pain, suffering, the torture and the hurt. But still, living is still about death ultimately. Old age and illnesses. I would be the one seeing thru pains, the tortures and the hurts of the world before i die off. Which one is better? Enlighten me.

Good Morning! 1st January 2005

Last year when i was going out, i overheard that the esplanade is cancelling the fireworks for new year cos alot of them are grieving for the tsunami victims. A number of places are actually cancelling the celebrations as well. WHat the heck. Although its a big scale thing, lives are lost, lives are fragile, homes are wrecked, earthquake and tsunamis that happened so near to us, its just that its not us yet. The radio said: It happened to the world, it happened to us. Here's my two cents worth. Its all bullshit. Its a natural disaster. We cannot prevent it. We can only avoid it. We have the watever trackter to track watever vibrations of the earth and movements of the volcanoes. Wat happened to that? Wat about man made disasters? Nuclear bombs? War? Iraq? Terrorists? Lives are lost, homes are wrecked too. Wat about the poorer countries that kids dying of malnutrition? Its happening everyday. Arent we suppose to grieve everyday? Arent we suppose to stop partying totally then? Why dun we all become Mother Theresa or even Ghandi to make the world better place then? Maybe thats the hot topic for now, For the news. Maybe it happened near new year. And another thing: Wat about the trees we killed? the earth we stomped onto the ground to build high rise buildings? We can only take control of the world but not the other way round. How ironic. Who are we anyway?

Why do people always think they are right when they are wrong?

I seriously think its just another pretty face. What is more to it? I cant tolerate fititious attitudes that make me wanna puke.

Christmas frenZy at Ray's.

1.Waiting to go to Ray's place.. 2.Changing presents.




Ok, its empty.. poh pee tee gong. But some of them are getting filled up..=D

>
and the madness slowly begins..




How about birds? Jailbird or love birds?

wiSdom ExtRactioN

24th Dec 2004
Extracted my left upper wisdom tooth today. It corroded and i decided to take it out. What a nice gift. My left knee is bandaged up as well cos i went to fix it. Looks like i'm half paralysed from the left. Thank God my left arm is working. =D

I was thinking the definition of 'Friends' when a theory came up. Friends are like precious stones. You take care of it. Polish it, admire it. Make sure they are nice and you actually enjoy doing wat you did. They are your prized possesion. But one day, one of the stone got a crack on it. Saddening. You had made sure nothing happened to ur stones. You had taken good care of it but it just happened. You dunno why and wat is wrong. The more you see it, the more your heart broke. So you put it one side and decide not to take a second look on it. The stone just sat there, once were ur prized possesion. Friends.

Yes, i'm at home spending my 'Silent Night'. Surprisingly, dad is out for a mahjong session. I cant stand the crowd anymore. Maybe i'm just old. Thinking of the hassle of going home with tons of pple and not having a single vacant cab makes my mind tired. Clubbing.. Maybe, with my blood, still oozing out from the gum and a bandaged knee. Sounds like i'm asking for donation. Ha.


Human jam at Wisma/Taka 3 days before christmas.


That's the only uncle who is not rushing.

ChriStmas!

1. Digital cam-checked
2. Fix my knee-checked
3.Ensure ERS in my account-checked
4. Get a new system- Processing
5. MP3 Player-Still thinking
6. Celebrating it-It doesn't matter cos its the same every year
7.Going bankrupt-Priceless

Gulping down cough syrup and spend my christmas in dreamland. That's something new.
Maybe give a lil thanks to God. He is more true than us. Less complicating and not quarrelsome.

Let's talk about sex, baby.

Well, its not about sex. My buddy at work is asking me why haven't i been blogging, as in writing about stuff.. Guess there are so many things that happened that i dun feel like getting it down on my piece of memory. I've only got like 16MB of storage, my dear. I have to be picky. Well, life isn't sweet and dainty but i definitely can choose to fill it up with junk or not. Taking up my space equates wasting my time. Thought pictures says a thousand words.. She wants a piece of me.. So here goes my whining about the world, about pple and most of all, i remembered she like my journal on TREES.The big event today:Miss Plastic has forgotten to include my bonus in my payslip today. I am suppose to blow my top and show her my brains, but there is really nothing i can do. The worst is that she mite say" Oh, I will put the bonus in on ur next month's pay then." Cruel. There goes my christmas. Well, thats life. Anywayz, work will be piling up soon coz our octopus has left the dept. Buddy will become mad and i will become grouchy. We will have communication error and no reponse from reader and eventually IFCC will become red. Until how long, nobody knows. Let's talk about something else, shall we? Sometimes, i dun wish to go out anymore.. things have changed, pple changed, everything changed. I haven't change. Have you?
When you look back the years, u realised that how you wished time could turn back, but the fact is if you have did wat you did and felt happy about it, would you not be happy that time had passed and is looking forward to more things to accomplish? Why waste time regretting and wanting to start all over again? How true is that. I finished Tuesdays with Morrie. I want to keep that book. I'm tired.

PiCtuRes

>sOuLs<

You Are a Retrospective Soul

The most misunderstood of all the soul signs. Sometimes you even have difficulty seeing yourself as who you are. You are intense and desire perfection in every facet of your life. You're best described as extremely idealistic, hardworking, and a survivor. Great moments of insight and sensitivity come to you easily. But if you aren't careful, you'll ignore these moments and repeat past mistakes. For you, it is difficult to seperate the past from the present. You will suceed once you overcome the disappoinments in life. Souls you are most compatible with: Traveler Soul and Prophet Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

JinXed wEEkenD

I am so jinxed by i dunno what and i am so gonna talk about it.. Firstly, my blogger died on me... it just blackouted. And another thing is that i can't sign in Fridae.. Wat is this world becoming to? I'm so waiting for someone to save me. Bloody hell.

[Saved!]
i am here to save your day~ haha. and i nida drop a few words (kpo). u'r not so jinxed after all ya? ;p ok lah just wanna tell you i emailed you a "blog.txt" notepad format for you to keep. so whenever you face codes problem again, just copy and paste the whole junk of code into your template. so that is suppose to be your backup copy. ok love ya take care *hugs* haah.. ciao~
[signing of undefine]

CybErshoP/iSlanDwiDe

Got my islandwide digital cam already.. My latest toy. haha.. Gonna bring her out tmr.. anyone wanna meet me up?? *gRinZ*

iNteLLigenCe

Your Dominant Intelligence is Linguistic Intelligence

You are excellent with words and language. You explain yourself well. An elegant speaker, you can converse well with anyone on the fly. You are also good at remembering information and convicing someone of your point of view. A master of creative phrasing and unique words, you enjoy expanding your vocabulary. You would make a fantastic poet, journalist, writer, teacher, lawyer, politician, or translator.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

Here cOmes tHe pHotos!!

Drink, drink, drink..




One satisfied drunkard..=Þ

ZoukOuT!

Basically had fun with some minor hiccups.. Went to my place for drinking and to think they wanted to finish up the whole full bottle of Vodka Blackcurrant??? Madness.. went there about 1am.. Groove non-stop till 7am.Was telling missy undefine i suspect we will be fully paralysed when we wake up.. heh!! Stoopid.. Non-stop mega hits..keke.. Not to speak we arrived with 2 drunkards. It always happen. Then suddenly there is this hyper-active kid that comes alive..*headache* Well, there is also some news that shock us. But only on occasions. Clubbing occasions? Can't wait for photos, yah? *Wink* And Juice Magazine!!! The thought of the "toa payoh" out makes me smile.. =D Christmas?

You Are a Social Blogger!

Your blog is more of a semi-private affair for your friends. It's how you keep in touch... sharing stories, jokes, and pics.

What kind of blogger are you?

Excerpts from a book that I'm reading..

**Fearing the pain involved, almost all of us, to a greater or lesser degree or lesser degree, attempt to avoid problems. We procrastinate, hoping that they will go away. We ignore them, forget them, pretend they dun exist. We attempt to get out of them rather than suffer thru them. This tendency to avoid problems and the emotional suffering inherent in them is the primary basis of all human mental illness.

**We are unique. Its good that we are all different, even if it does lead to conflict, because maturely handled differences can give us a clearer sense of our own individuality and a greater appreciation for how different human beings really are.

How easily it was written and how difficult it is to do it...

~tRanSporTed

We are being transported to a cemetery. A new cemetery. The tombstones are neat, grass are healthy and the air is still stale. Its a private cemetery, baby. It can only be accessed to the tenants. We are staying there for good. There wont be any more shouting, afraid of waking the dead. We are dead anyway. The only thing is that it is so freaking quiet that i am afraid i will start to hear voices in my head and losing my precious mind. How professional to be dead nowadays. No more scaring of people but going off in peace..How sad... (My new office) No music, No life.

How does it feel
To be different from me
Are we the same
How does it feel
To be different from me
Are we the same
How does it feel

So wat if you know the truth?
So wat if you are ignorant?
So wat your perception change?
So wat i see you differently?
It doesn't change anything.
It doesn't help.
It already happened.
It cannot change.

I can go on for days..
Its my space, rite?

^anger-Management

Dun bother explaining if you think you are rite.
watever you say to me is wrong.
Someone is hurt. Someone that is closest to my heart.
Can you not feel it? Or are you not human?
Am i suppose to be sorry if i'm fucking pissed?
It doesn't matter. Its OK. Get over it. Life goes on.
It will soon be over. Shit happens.
I am learning to be happy about it too. Ha.
Let it go. Life is such a breeze, ain't it?
Mistakes are to be made and forgiven.
Will it be forgotten? Maybe that's where you are made to be remembered

The thought of you makes me very sick!The thought of you makes me very sick! The thought of you makes me very sick!The thought of you makes me very sick!The thought of you makes me very sick!The thought of you makes me very sick!The thought of you makes me very sick!The thought of you makes me very sick! Shut the FUCK UP! I AM VERY PISSED! i know the things that i dun want to know. Wat good does it get? it doesn't fucking get me anywhere! It doesn't fucking matter. You are fucking getting on my nerves! Why don't you get fucking messed up sumwhere? You are getting people very upset. You know it, don't you? It doesn't really fucking matter. That's it. Everyone seems to know it and it really doesn't matter. Who the fuck are we anyway? Why must your happiness be someone else's misery? Think about it.

bUsy tHinkiNg*

I try to live my life my way, i try to be better as it is. i try to think why are we here, to fulfill our dreams, to do the things we want or to do things that people want? Circumstances that change us. There are so many routes to take, even its dead end, you have to find a bloody way out. Did i say bloody? Halloween? ok, Its even harder than i think. i wanna give up. But life goes on. There's still things to do. I nearly fell from the stairs when i suddenly blackouted. Flashbacks came. What if i was paralysed? Who wud bother? Its a burden that no one wants to carry. Shoulders are heavy. i need to breathe. i need to get out of here. Will i able to hold on till that day? Maybe i will be understanding towards life, as it is the way it is. No one talks abt anything anymore cos it doesn't help. Prozac PLEASE!! my illness is acting up again.

HapPy*

Happy. You should be happy.
Why think of all those things that makes you sad? Its not good for health.
Everybody has their own problems but you should have fun, be happy abt your life. Yah, so you throw all the unhappiness one side, enjoy the times together with whoever cos they are happy and then you forget the issues you have cos there wont be a solution.. maybe not that fast. maybe not at all.
Not every freaking problem has a solution, rite? your problem woulden be that great to keep pple listening.
Suddenly, someone asked you abt the issue that you have been trying to ignore. You dunno how.
Once you were so concerned, so troubled, because of the issue you had. Surfacing, you broke down cos you knew that it doesnt matter anymore.
Nobody is just there for you anymore. Dependant, yes. Regretted, yes.
The next thing is: So? Wat diff does it make? You are still wanting to be happy. You are still trying to ignore cos you know everything has already long been this way.

HapPy hALLowEeN!!

God save our souls.



**2 nerds were brutally beaten by ah bengs on the way to school.
**The girl that broke her arm while saving them.
**Black eyed P wanna-be had a huge car accident. The driver died and she survived.

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All thanks to her of what we've became.


Evidence by a kind samaritan. Let's get prepared for the next suicide!! =D

Brain^leSs

How much crap can you endure before you shut the person up? Somebody shut me up. Social pressure, that makes the person you are today, ain't it?

Another Rubbish

When you love someone so deeply, it becomes intoxicating. When you hate someone so deeply, your heart breaks easily. There is no choice but to hate in order to forget. The anger and hatred that erases everything. When you think of all those times you were together, they are just memories. He said, when you love, you have to forget yourself and think that there is only one for you.But that is when there are only two of us. There wuden be issues and circumstances to think and to take care of. True love. Tell me about it.
Have you ever thought of something in your mind and dunno what are you thinking about suddenly? Nevermind me.

*Everything changes, but nothing changes.

Titleless

Going to work tmr. Planning a trip this year end. Not aussie. Sumwhere near probably. So many things to do. Wonder if i am able to get it all done.Feeling lousy today. Maybe because i'm home the whole freaking day. Crazy when u are out, time passes by quickly. Wish u had stayed at home and let time pass slowly, but likewise, its boring! In the end, tmr still have to work..*Sigh* Rubbish. Counting down to year end...everyday.. i think my cat is the one enjoying life.. in this household. Learnt how to post pictures already, heh.. So there will be alot of pics coming up. =D

POST CONCEPTUAL PSYCHOLOGY

We know the mind is free. We know the spirit lives in breath and in action. And yes our knowledge is false but at least we make no pretense about it. You will never understand yourself and if you try to do so, it is nothing but a trap and an illusion so SCREW your therapist and probably you both will feel better. There is no truth, there is no knowledge, you will never get these things however how much you pay and anyone who tries to sell you these things is trying to deceive you.There are ghosts and spirits all around you and once we could see them, yes thats rite, once we could talk to them to them and everything and now we cant. So we should all weep because we have all been driven so mad that we have lost contact and it is ALL THEIR FAULT.
It is the pschologists who need treatment and not us. Spike their drinks if you have the chance. The only reason they studied psychology in the first place was because they thought they could find out why they were so crazy themselves without anyone else finding out about it, so dun let them get away with it.If you think it will drive you mad then is is perfectly understandable because you live in a madhouse full of LIES and more LIES. It is not surprising if you go mad yourself, for there is no escape except the escape of freedom. In fact, you would have to be mad not to go mad under the circumstances.

(THINK)

The Dating Game

The Dating Game. There are several couples together. One of the couples broke up and caused a ripple. They will date other people in the group. Some of them will be unfaithful and it will break the chain. Wat the other party do, the circle will know. They reshuffle and got attached all over again. How tiring the whole process will be and how hard it is to be able to date when you get older....







*The complexicity of the brain, no one will understand.

Hangout?

This is my weekend hangout after a night of booze and bullshit..To think i even forget the appointment i made with the HDB personal.. sucky.. Mum caught me.. Made a mess at her place.. Din expect to be back so early.. anyway i have already forgotten all abt it.. Let alone cleaning up. I am starting to play the blame game again... *bleh*

A Picture Paints A Thousand Words.

This is wat i do everyday, Mondays to Fridays.. This is Life. My Life.



Kiasu to board, Kiasee to move in.*ROAR*


Stand behind the yellow line, are you deaf?

FACES ARE NOT TAKEN TO PROTECT THEIR PRIVACY, THEY DUN WANNA BE KNOWN, DO THEY?

Happy birthday!!!!

Walking ciggerettes.fucking drunkards.thats wat we were yesterday night.Happy birthday Peenut. Din know so many people love you.Include me?In case your index finger is hurting.Its me.No doubt about it.Saw alot of things going on in the club's toilet.queues.make up.lipstick.eye brows.nail polish.skirts.boobs.gossip.Mens' toilet please.Its quiet.no queues.no bimbos. thats the difference.

TRIBUTE TO TREES

I have been working in the office for nearly a year and whenever i go for a smoke, i see those trees. The wild trees that grow and wither. Perhaps no one even notice or care, but they carry my thoughts. They listen to my thoughts. I din know they are chopping off those defenseless trees just for the sake of building the bloody circle line. For peoples' sake, for the convenience of our human race. We are indeed moving, upgrading and enhancing our lives with better things. We destroy the things that obstruct our way, to get our better-living lifestyle. Have we forgotten why are we here? To make this place a better place to live in? Arent we good now? Why are we always not satisfied? Why dun they ask the owner who planted the trees there, who owned the world when humans stepped onto this ground, ask him can we do watever we humans are doing now? Arent trees living things? Although they dun bleed, they dun feel but i do.

Sprained chest bones. Breathing difficulty.collecting ants.i hate everything about you.

Thinking~~So in Love.Breakup.Still love one another.But still have to break up.Not compatible.Move on.How?You never try you never know.Why are you attached in the first place?Explain?Will you love again?If yes, then wat is your previous relationship called?Why people can still call it love of their life?Can somebody gimme a bloody definition of love, instead of putting it off to describe" Its a feeling." Am I dead or wat?

Alrite.Someone has already explained on Fridae. That was fast. All thanks to Tazmania.=D

Abandoned site^^

Some of my friends had decided to abandon their blogs... Wonder why they did it in the first place. Makes me think if its a good thing to do. I made a journal of my own too.. The old-fashioned way.. Will it drain me out with my own freaking thoughts? Went Zouk yesterday.. We were at Mox for awhile.. to meet a friend. That place is dead.Maybe when i am 35, i will go there. Still got 12 years to go.. or maybe when i feel like mtv-ing i mite go? eh.. i dun think so... cant smoke, no loud music. I am loud! Bloody Hell. Talking abt zouk, i went with the usual suspects. Skip the refused entry, we managed to get in with the help of the VIP anyway, ha. One more thing, Heineken makes me pee alot but din get me anywhere. I was actually quite sober till the end. Nearly got into a fight. Too bad it din happen. Pisses me off again. So fucking wat if u are drunk? thats ur problem. trying to be friendly again? Get lost. Men! looking at women at a piece of meat. Why dun you go home and learn some manners? or look at your mum instead?Perverts.



*You wun die without someone. You will die without yourself.

**Dude, Where's my head?
**I thought I left it on the toilet seat?
**I think you flushed it down.

Bite my head OFF!!

ANGRY!ANGRY!ANGRY!ANGRY!ANGRY!ANGRY!ANGRY!ANGRY!ANGRY!ANGRY!ANGRY!ANGRY!ANGRY!ANGRY! GET A LIFE AND STOP PISSING PEOPLE OFF! AND ONE MORE THING, MISS I, STOP ACTING FRIENDLY AND WIN VOTES FOR YOURSELF. MISS PLASTIC. DO I EVEN KNOW YOU? STOP WASTING MY TIME, BITCH. ROAR!!!!

~Take me to the shallow water, before i get too deep.
Will i be contented without encountering the dangers that lies beneath?

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I am 60% evil.

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Monday~~

Lets recap wat i've done over the weekend...
** Thursday: Went to have dinner with 6ix at holland V. Had KFC. Guess its not very happening to her cos she asked me do i always come here for KFC? It looks so dead.. Well, the chickens are dead and fried anywayz, kakaka.. Rubbish.. Wonder if she will call me and whine abt wat i write.. No offence, ya? =D
** Friday: Went down town after work to meet grouch. Thanks for the band. Love it. Nicer than the previous one. =) Its still tied on my ankle. Phew.. Went mums place after that.. So scary to stay alone, not to say i never stayed alone before but its different. Felt so empty. Maybe i dun frequent there.. Had nightmare that night.. Sucky.
** Saturday: Went to collect blanket and off to sentosa with grouch. Made the membership there. =) Free entry, woohoo! Guess i'm going there more often.. I like to tan there..dunno why..Mmm.. probably EC is too far for me? After that went BBQ at grouch's place. Only 3 of us. haha. I started the fire alone and i am proud of it.. heh.. The sense of satisfaction is there.. Its only fire wat.. But u never know the story behind it...Long long time ago..I was fuming with fire then..ha.
** Sunday: Slag at home the whole day. Globe actually asked me to kayak but EC.... ahem.. hee.. But i manage to do some chores at home like laundry and cleaning the fan..=) Erm... it actually rainned that day? Luckily i din make the trip..Suppose to meet grouch again for shopping in the evening but i slept it off..So, that's basically it.. Monday, work again.. When will it be December? Counting down...

?QUestion Mark?

Have you ever thought your decision being a yes or no can be critical to another person? i realised if you say no to another person, she may feel disappointed because of ur disapproval and its like ignoring her existance? She may be very happy to let you know that you will be supporting her watever it is.. But on the other hand, if you say yes to it, will she not abuse it? will she not take you for granted? Why dun you make decisions on ur own then? only u are answerable for ur own actions? Will you be able to do it with no strings attach? Will you not have friends around you to feed you with diff perspectives and be confused? Does anyone really stand alone? Really alone?

Love?

Love came, I know it but you dun. It lingers for awhile and it gets stronger cos I know I missed you. I wish it could leave but no, it doesn’t. I dun care if you even know, I just wanna be free from you. maybe its just me. I am so infatuated. Infatuated by you.. will you love me like I do?

Survival on Great 8!

Yes! i finally accomplished something that is absolutely nonsensical and got a cert for it. The time is now 1830hrs and still going strong. Am now still having dinner at Bud's house. Incredible huh? No LCD tv to be won but had a consolation prize though and that is 2 tix for Ballet under the stars..thought i had a family curse cos i din win anything in my entire life. to think that the first name they called was me.. thought it was somebody else when they read the I.D no, it cuden be wrong.. Wondering who will actually go with me...mmm.. and there are like tons of door gifts too.. mostly shampoo, i've got like 3 of them, one mcdonalds The Dog pillow but its in black, erm... spiderman comicbook, trading cards and notebook. My fave door gift will be the free entry pass to sentosa!Woohoo! the movies are basically nice except for Ladykillers. not much of a storyline.. most recommended: white chicks, without a paddle and dodgeball if you caught zoolander before..haha.. looking forward to the sentosa trip... tanning..=) guess i will knockout when i reach home... but i wanna listen to my F.I.R album. Just bought it and has accompanied thruout my journey. alrighty, headingfor home sweet home... Tmr still gotta work. Will go laminate my cert tmr in my office, keke..

Light of my Life

Its been a hectic week.. Buddy's gf is in ICU for dengue, went to check on her yesterday and now i am having diarrhea.. is it in the trend? Or issit just me? Saw so many things going on in the ward.. The old auntie opp her is actually passing away and all her family members were there.. Pardon us but we have been staring at them to see wat is going to happen next.. Catholics.. doing some rituals.. Saddening.. Luckily she is just in ICU for observation.. tubes everywhere around her body.. The big machine is always making this noise like an alarm, irritating.. She is fine, can talk and make jokes but she wanna go home. Who dun wanna? staying in that kind of place..But still, she have to be observed..There is this 'meesee' who actually explained every detail of dengue and answers all our questions. looks like Lucy Liu..heh..Not bad if u have this kind of nurse looking after you, yah? *wink* Hopefully she gets transferred to her ward this afternoon..

My fast-forwarded weekend**

Went out on friday to catch a play with Kyon and lyn. Mergers and Wills. To think i have so much emotions and thoughts abt it. Quite nice. It would be better if its in English, ya? =) Supposed to to C&C which i have no idea why its packed with pple.. *scratch head* Went down to 5'10 instead. drink and drink..had fun.. i have such good laugh when im with them. So i decided to go out with them the next day. Supposed to go kayaking but slept till 230pm.. my usual routine is to wake up at 10am and go market? ha. Met them at boat quay and karaoke-ing again.. drink and drink again.. cant drink much cos headaches.. dunno why whenever i drink, my headaches come..i shud be damn. Wedding is suppose to be 1200pm the next day and guess wat? Came home at 7am in the morning.. Must be disappointing to have me as a colleague.. Went out again.. with XB. Basically stoning away.. got my puma t-shirt. *Glee* and some others.. ikea is so packed with pple and we headed down to Mt Faber, courtesy of grouch. =D Nice place to stone again.. talking rubbish, blah blah... wanted to wash car but freaking tired and its only 11pm if i remembered. Sorry pal.. Monday is almost over and saturday is coming again and i am going for the movie marathon. Bless me.

Self - Evaluation

Psychiatric evaluation. Everyone is a problem. Its just how they see it and handle it. Maybe i cant handle other pple becoz they are more crazy than me. Their emotions and the way of handling things are something i cant comprehend. They can just do watever they think is right mite not be rite for wat i think it is. Or am i to say maybe i am the insane one? I am driving myself crazy...
Went for Hoobastank concert at sentosa yesterday. We can only stay outside and hear. No tickets. Turned out quite a number of them were also stranded outside for a sake of just one song.. You know wat i mean. Good thing we din miss it cos we arrives at 930pm. The place changed quite alot. The toilets were cool, not as crampy. Met Damon and friends. Asked me to go phuture. Taken back for a while and the past images flashed into my mind. I had one time experience with them was already enough and my kaki was not even there. Think better stay with my faithful buddy. Its her birthday today! Went to Newsroom. it was packed everywhere. Its been a long time since i went down that stretch of road. Long long time ago. Had fun. =) Buddy's gf sent me home with her bike. Woohoo! The chilly wind blowing against me, felt so good. Felt so exposed compared to driving. The excitement when you know that it is dangerous. Life is just one thin line. It just feel so alive when you know the next moment something bad mite happened. Felt so free..Ha.

Stranded**

Time: 0130hr and suppose to be asleep on my cosy bed but i still hafta wait for my hair to dry.. Just reached home due to some unforseen circumstances.. ha. I was having steamboat with my best mates at marina south and were happily chatting away. Time flies.. and its on a weekday, due to time constraint, we decided to head home. Yes, only me and 'another buddy' went home together. We were so tired of waiting for the bus and was actually wondering if the last bus has gone... finally decided to take a cab home but i was so broke that she have to fork out the money first. How pathetic.. Anyways, there was not an ATM found in the south... Caught the last bus to the MRT station and went down to Somerset to draw some money.. Haiz.. another mishap.. The atm cant vomit out the money. My buddy started to panic and i was in a cuden be bothered attitude. I dunno wat has gotten to me but i just feel so peaceful? haha.. Maybe its with her. She can do the thinking. I quit doing that already. Went to her house by bus and she hafta transfer the money to my acc thru internet banking. How strange. Well, if thats the best way, i will just follow then. So this is how i managed to get home with my buddy's help. Thanks Buddy! Still wanna go out with me next time? ha. well, that brought a very different experience to her though.. Quit smoking eh? if you really did it, probably i will do that more often..always broke.haha. =D

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I'm tired of work lately. Is it true that when pple get too close, they lose the courtesy to actually let them know that they are pissed, instead they show it on you? I dun owe anyone to get this kind of attitude, do I? I am sick and tired of work too. I've heard 121 voice msges, Lodged like almost 50 lost reports on ezlink cards and have to hear pple complaining and blaming at our wonderful system. My another wonderful SENIOR colleague still can ask me why yesterday i din hear the voice mail? I am actually doing you a favour by listening to YOUR voice mails. You said there are 30 over msges unheard and why din i get back to them? Why dun you? Can i have some bloody credit on what i've done? Sometimes i wish those pple i hate can just die. Fucking getting on my nerves. Talking abt work makes me boil. Lousy day! My only consolation is that I'm going out with my buttheads for steamboat. Lets hope that they dun ask me abt work.Guess i will burst.

LoVe~~

You are totally in love.You try to hide it but you
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Friendship

SORRY!! i lost the band you made for me.. really.. all the hardwork down the drain. You still looked so cool abt it. I wished you wud just flare up a lil but you din. Makes me so guilty. I really treasure the band you know. It makes you feel special. Hand made stuff. No second piece is the same. *Sigh* Gatsby said something which made me realised wat i am now is different from wat i was in the past. She said she wud prefer me to be like in the past, be it in attitude. I missed it too. Guess its the relationships with pple that makes you changed without you realising it. Gratefiul that someone still likes me for who i am, without even changing. I've changed. Changed under circumstances but i will try to break it thru. If you dun like me, get out of my life. Thats me. I hate living in your shadows. Just shut up. Your words kill. **ROAR**

My world.

I wish the world is black and white, a yes or no situation and love or hate relationships. I wuden be living in contradiction. I wish I was a deaf and mute. I wuden hear wat I dun wanna hear, I wuden see wat I dun wanna see. Life is sometimes beautiful but I've seen some of the ugly sides too. I rather give it all up. Life is always not a straight line. I get it. Who is great enough to set things rite? I am learning to love, love this imperfect world, learning to love wholeheartedly.

I miss you. Whenever when I am feeling down, u never fail to bring me joy. I miss you. whenever I need you, u are always there. I miss you. although sometimes you mite switch me off but I still miss you. now that its all gone, you are no longer here with me, cos I let you go heartlessly.whenever I see you with somebodyelse, I wondered if I did the rite thing. I have no choice. I need a change. but I still loved you the most, do you know thaT? My Nokia 6510..

New knees please!!

Yes, my knees are weak and its getting worse.. i need to find a physiotherapist to be my partner.. ha. Grouchy asked me to drink turtle soup, it helps. Hmm.. how many turtles do they need to kill to get my knees cured? i rather see a decent doctor and find a authentic way to cure it. He said if its not better, i hafta go see the therapist. Haiz.. and he just dispensed some cream and painkillers and thats it. Looks fictitious. Lets see how it goes.. Long weekend is coming. Guess i hafta enjoy it with my disability.

See you in hell..

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Seventh Level of Hell!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	High
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Moderate
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	Very High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Very Low

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Tots

We have different perspectives, no two men are alike. All we can do is to accomodate and learn from each other. Will you just walk away if the person is not your cup of tea? Are you not thinking too highly of yourself? Who are we to judge anyway? Who are we to think we are better than other pple? Aren't we just human beings that some of us are still trying to find out why are we here? To evaluate other pple? To make yourself happy? I am sometimes sick and tired of this whole issue on communication compatibility. Maybe acceptance is hard. Maybe you shuden be too hard on urself. Maybe, maybe. You can always do things to please urself cos it is u who are living. Wat abt others? have you ever put yourself in others shoes, or u prefer to put others in UR shoes? Its the easier way out, yah? People, how interesting. They are a part of ur life, ur experience and emotions.I wonder if pple will die living in isolation? Why cant we live in peace? Life is a biatch.