Thesis?

My friend asked me what happened to my blog; and as usual, people got busy, get sick and tired of blogging, and there are thousand and one things u can say to put it off like many things had happened, dunno where to start on telling, there are too many things on the mind, and finally; maybe i shud just shut it down. Full stop. I have been trying to write non stop on what comes to my mind, but i guess that would get too many people involve, cos its the people that gets ur mind going and going and going and going.. I always think that seeing a psychiatrist is for the rich cos they have nothing better to do, they just need someone to talk to. I want to become rich. No matter how much i write, how loud i shout, how annoyed i become, the world is not going to change becos of me. my friends wouldnt change, i wouldnt change, they dun change, why shud i change? so all dun change. Say if i change, i agree on all the things they said, becos its their mindset, i agree to abcdefg to z, whats become of me? nothing. Did i become a pushover? If i disagree, i shout and scream, I get my point across, then they said why cant i change? So now i have to change. Then why dun u change to accomodate me then? The truth is change change lah, who cares? dun like, walk away lor. there has been some changes indeed. I prefer to lead a slower pace of life. I get less angry, i pay attention to the things i do, getting away the stress at work, the politics and the PR towards colleagues. Maybe i take things too seriously that i cant cope with the world, the people, the whatever. i tot abt death a few weeks back. i'm the kind of person that think of such things which i dun quite understand it myself either. theres nothing much this world can offer me cos i am not intending to offer anything to the world anyway. most of other peoples lives are more or less stabled down and even if they are not stable, its not my problem. I dare to challenge life, doing stunts physically, but not mentally. I get emotionally drained that i want to give up. The dare devil versus the cowardice in me. I am contradicting. I have split personality and i want to see a psychiatrist but i am not rich. My step aunt once told me that i have to get married at 28 if not, i cry myself to sleep from then onwards. ha. my future looks bleak, not becos i am coming to 28 and hoping to get married but cant situation, its just that i havent found one rich gf that can afford the fees that i am going to pay when i see a psychiatrist. Looks like i will have to invest on one waterproof pillow soon and sign up for some facial packages once i reach 28. I am still thinking of shutting it down this blog..

Wrong Info

SORRY! the webbie is www.the-t-word.com

Train of tots

I dun understand why people get into fights. Do you really want to kill that person? Have you have such anger in you that needs releasing? I would really want to kill that person if I really get into a fight. Cos it doesnt make sense if the person don't die. only death then the anger will be diminished. Its like you are so consumed with anger that consequences come later. If not, dun fight at all. Thank you.

Another thing, my website is up. Please feel free to take a look.
www.thetword.com
the shop has expanded but no pics yet.

Ok folks, Something different this time

To everyone who reads, my blog has been dead for some time and its time to revive a lil. I have officially quitted my job, which is crazy. Some might say, everybody will say, whatever they say, I can't really please everybody which gives me mental torture. Maybe because when u know u are not perfect and wanted it to be a lil more perfect and yet, why should I be perfect when u are not perfect blah blah blah.. siao liao.. anyway I have known no better way to break the news is that I will be doing some business at the old Queensway Shopping Centre selling Tees. Anyone who is interested in some sideline selling stuff of ur own, let me know. I have a space for you. Here's a sneak preview of my tiny little baby.. heh.






Ok, thats abt all. Can't put too much, there won't be much to see in the shop if I put it all up. =D

ten thousands of WHY?

I am havina a mental block. Have you realised sometimes when u did the best, its still not good enough? Character maybe. All i know is I have a plan trying to do something different. For once.

Belated Valentine Quote

Cheesy quote, I know but I like!

*Love doesn't make the world go round,
It makes life worthwhile

**People can do a million and one things to cover up their flaws,
They dun even know themselves anymore
Thats where people become pretentious
Afraid to show their true selves
Or maybe they are more worse off than any one of us.

Someone once told me everyone is with an excess baggage. I was afraid to let anyone know I do have one, I am now waiting for another to show me whats theirs.
I have to pay my dues
I have to cope with work
I have to struggle with stress
I have to deal with my crazy personalities
I am just like you and any other person.

Reshuffling

Changed a new CPU recently. Busy with work as usual. Chinese New year passed by like a breeze and now its Feb. Mmm.. Basically I'm in a love & hate situation with my work. Its gonna be a long story so I guess I will save it for another day. But the story I'm gonna tell now is a true life account that happened to me while I was at work.

(Owner is an uncle)
Me: I'm sorry we can't fix up ur car if the insurance can't approve the payout to our company. Maybe you can speak to ur insurer?
Owner: Who is the person in charge of my case? Maybe I can speak to her directly.
Me: Ok. Her name is Catherine. You can call her at XXXXXXXX
Owner: Battery? Her name is Battery ar?
Me: No. Its CATHERINE.
Owner: Ok. Battery. The car battery.
Hysterical Me: OK. you can call her battery. Make sure she approve ur claim and we will fix ur car, ok?

Thanks, uncle, for making my day.

My knees are weak
I am having diarrhea til my anus bleeds.

Running.... a fever

Having a lousy weekend. First is I have been diagnosed with a permanent sinus, which is probably my cat's the culprit. Then came a major flu and now with a fever. Eyes are burning, head is heavy and body is aching. I need some pity please. Can I lean on somebody? It rhymes! Damn it. Its the flu season. I caught the bug.

Did you know?
I don't know.
How can you not know?
Because I don't wanna know.
Why should I know?
Because everybody knows.
So?
You have to know.
Just shut up.

You killed me.
Is it?
Yes
How?
Your words.
Really?
Are you hurt?
No. I just died.

Bad Resolution

How can one lost the handphone and still try to sleep with someone else? Get a life. Or maybe just slutz in progress. Lame. Expect to get pity? Or a "helping hand"? This world is just full of shit. Pissed. Ok, Its the new year & I survived it. Drank a bottle of Bombay Gin. Headache was not so bad. Its a tradition for me to get really fucked up on festive season. Its a damn curse which I can't shake off. But! I did! I kept my cool & tolerated shit, like pple got fucked up & I got annoyed. I kept it. So slowly the night went. Drink drank drunk, drank drink drunk, drunk drink drank. I suppose this is a good year for me already. Its just another year. So resolution? How abt something for a change? I hope i can be a bitch, be less sane, be insensitive, more selfish, heck all responsibilities, have fun, go clubs, get hooked up with someone else or many other someone else, get more drunk.The solution to the world. Then maybe pple will get to notice me. Ha. No, seriously, i want to lose some weight. Maybe treat myself better. If i can be the above, i dun mind too. Heh.

Happy Christmas And Merry New Year!

Wishing all my friends a blessed year ahead! Went to market this morning and found out that there was Watson's in my neighbourhood. Yeh! My dad told me its been opened for three weeks already. That shows that I've neen busy. As usual. I guess this is the time for finding an excuse to celebrate yet again, with another public holiday. Please get get and be merry! CHeerS!

MOS night

Went for the opening. The queue is way longer than hello kitty's. Well, so I joined the queue with faith. I tot, I can do it on halloween's night @ zouk when its full house, I should have no probs getting in this one. No matter what. Pple were leaving in the end, I had a few hiccups with my friends, the queue getting shorter, but it was still stuck. Damn. Finally my time came with the invite that can get me friggin in. For free. The place is friggin big. I got lost finding the toilet. And the toilet is huge. Imagine that. Its totally cool. Main hall, hip hop room, RnB room, Retro room and those redundant rooms for meeting and private functions. I went in with a tour guide, telling me what the rooms are.. heh.. she went for the soft launch party, thats why. So I suppose i badly need a drink to get in the mood for club. Whatever happens, drink & get merry. I had a terrible headache after that. I would love to go there again, with no tensions please. Thank you.

No queues guaranteed


million disco balls at the retro room.

Another wisdom tooth

I just went for an extraction just now. MC for tmr. Yeh. The next two extractions will be major. I can't rem where i left my previous tooth. Its somewhere in the room. I dun rem throwing it away.. or did i? Damn. Now my 2 teeth can't meet.. My mouth is still numb.. reminds me of Deuce Bigalow. ha, except there is no one i can confess my love to. Where is my other tooth?.......

Time Capsule

Finally. I got rid of my container full of memories. Left there for like 8 long years, collecting dust. Tons of letters from the past, made me felt so loved. I had to throw it all away. I need to clear my space. My journals dated from 1996. That was my history. Those whatever tots, feelings I had. Those memeories that I clinged on, of no use cos it will never be the same again. Life's life. My old friend said; Old won't go, new couldn't come. I was waiting for the new to come first then get rid of the old one. ha. Guess it will not happen.
Extracted from one of my old journals;

*Feelings overwhelm me
So blind that I can't see
Love cuts me deeply
Sadness live in it
& I know happiness has left quietly

Sugarfly

Damn my leave was not approved. I had to clear leave before 15th. So I took the 15th. There goes my plan. Or maybe there is no plan at all. I am so consumed by my work and I am suffering from memory loss. Went Thumper the other day. I began to detest and not being able to enjoy myself. Maybe I was not drunk that day. Maybe I was looking for another high. It becomes a routine for me, for my mind, thinking of work the next day. I am completely fine with my work. Meaningless to see who is with who, being seen with whom, "hi, how are you? this is who and who." Maybe I am not with someone else. I tot I can enjoy myself... Maybe I will the next time round. 5 jugs of whatever alcohol please. Maybe I'm just old.

I am so obsessed in making my cat fat.

I am getting a dining set from a friend, friend's friend's friend. At least I am getting something from my wishlist. If it can come true then maybe i will input more. ha. I realised i loan the company van. for free. but, no license. damn. i need one. soon. Eve told me Joyce was going taiwan. Dunno if she went already. for election? Planning to go with dad in april. Then we can flaunt our hokkien speaking skills. heh. my current travel plan i to spend new year overseas. KL? anyone? 30th till the 2nd. 2006. i want a long bus ride. i want to stay in bukit bintang. i want to go bintang walk.

*Different frequencies will lead to electricution.

**Its amazing some people are still around because it's illegal to kill them.