Pet Frantic

Well, i woke up with a destination in mind with a friend, my dear friend cub. We saw a poster at a bus stop. Advertisements do wonders. SPCA poster. And off we went. Saw a labrador i liked. Name: Captain. He cannot be kept in HDB cos he's big. He was very friendly and he let me touch him too.. Guess he needs some love. So I told him" As much i wanna take you, i have to move in to private property.. If you are willing, lets wait for this wed and see what happens..." Wed lottery..
After that, we went to the notorious pet farm at Lor Halus.. We alighted at farm 2. Walked to farm 3..Saw dogs, cats and fish. Learnt quite a number of things on salt water fish and aquariums.. I believed we walked more than 3km. We were lost. We walked to what seems to be a main road where there are there are trucks passing thru and fro. When we finally got to that road, it was like another world.. as what cub said. The road was hardly visible as it was covered in dust.. there were only trucks that carried sand and stones. Hitch a ride? I wouldnt dare, let alone walk from that road. God knows how much mud bath we will be in.. i will need a pair of goggles. So we walked back again. I was hungry, thirsty and my legs are acheing.. Finally when we walked towards one of the fish farm, one taxi drove in. We were lucky. He picked us up and went to buy his frogs for his fish. He said he was lucky to pick us up. We were finally out of that place.. able to enjoy the air-con and catch our breath but the cab driver was talkative, talking about how difficult it is to get customers, how he would have to pick up cans on the road because of the difficult time he will face when the new mrt line is up, yakety yak... went to changi for dinner after that. After dinner, we went for movies at tampines mall.. Monster-in-law.. Good movie for digestion. What an excursion. But i kinda like it although my legs are still acheing..

Durian Tots

Fancy having durians at 2am in the morning. They were particularly delicious. Ate 9 pieces of them. Wonder why i ate so much.. Maybe its becoz of the timimg..heh.. Was playing solitaire and enjoying the fruit when i was thinking about dating. How dates are getting mundane and boring. Imagine if I were to ask someone out, its either movies, concerts, dinners, or maybe clubbing. Do people still go to parks, walk by the beaches, the old fashion-way? Maybe if i have the transport around. what about something different? I would love to go to camps, visit some of the islands, or maybe bungee-jumping for a change. Maybe my life is mundane and boring already. But then again, its the person that makes the difference. If the feeling is mutual, you will still enjoy it becoz you are with the person you like. Right? Wanna have a date with me? keke..

L.A.Z.Y

I've eaten some lazy pills. Or is it my lazy bones are creeping up on me.

Late nite

Lightning strikes.
We were outside.
We screamed.
Waiting for the last bus to our destination.
Destination which i dunno where.
Destination where i can have my oysters.
Having gone thru such adventurous disaster.
It was fun.
It was my virgin torrential rain outing.
With the umbrella in pink.

Judgemental

Faults are judged.
You are the jury to everything else.
See not only superficial.
Feel not with your hands.
Then you will see you and me are the same.
Fallen.

Sin

7 Deadly sins:
*Lust
*Envy
*Greed
*Sloth
*Wrath
*Pride
*Gluttony

If everyone is free of all these, the person would be perfect. Who is perfect?

**You can never know how important you are to someone's life until someone tells you so.. You are important. You are responsible to someone's anger, disappointment, sadness and even happiness. Your presence. How powerful.

i am feeling lousy. I am lousy becoz i dun feel important and i feel small. Its been a lousy week and i am feeling lousy. I've almost talked to everyone i can get my hands on and they know how shitty i am. i am whining and whining about it. Its the interview that made me feel this way. I have basically nothing. No qualifications and no qualities. I have been sick for the past 1 month and my ears and nose are blocked. How sickening. To everyone: thanks for being there.

Dangerously in love

I love you, I love you, I love you...

Baby, I love you, you are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete if you weren't by my side
You're my relation and connection to the sun
With you next to me, there's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops, I am the seed
With you and God who's my sunlight I'm blooming, grown so beautifully
Baby I'm so proud, proud to be your girl
You make the confusion go all away from this cold and misty world

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

And I know you love me, love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am, baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy, easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication from you to me
Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife and I see my whole future in your eyes
The thought of all my love for you, sometimes makes me wanna cry
Realize all of my blessings, I'm grateful to have you by my side

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

Every time I see your face, my heart smiles
Every time it feels so good, it hurts sometimes
Created in this world to love, to hold, to feel, to breathe
To live you
Dangerously in love, yeah

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

Dangerously (dangerously)
Dangerous, dangerously in love with you
Oh, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you, oh yes [repeat]

Attention Seeker.

How can i be an extreme when i haven't been over the edge? Psychologists always term patients behaviour as a sign of illness that has to be cured. I think its all bullshit. Just becoz they dun wanna spend some time on listening to them, they are quick enuff to label them as sick. Who in the god damn world has the rite to judge them? we can only think that they are just one of the kind. Some can be irritating in our lives and towards our emotions. They just couldnt think straight thats all. Maybe they haven't been thru shit, or maybe they have, thats why they are behaving like that. I could be commiting suicide and yet not die just becoz i need some attention. I can be yelling top of my lungs and yet no one is listening. after all, they just need somebody. everyone does. They just wanna get known, in another way. Pay attention. They need some love although some are indeed loved by others already. I pay respect to those who have committed suicide and indeed died cos they made it. My suggestion: If you really wanna die, do it. Jump. Dun let pple talk you out of it. It defeats the purpose. Taking pills doesnt work cos there mite be a possibility you mite get saved. If you can do it, i salute you cos i am still plucking up my courage to end it although life seems worthless sometimes. they are not crazy, you are not a psychologist.

i seriously think that i havent been blogging abt much abt myself.. abt small little details over slightest thing that get on my nerves. so i guess thats emo blog coz when i am overwhelm by things then i start to write. So here i am complaining abt things that has passed thru in my life, and still i havent died. Weeks have passed and i went to punggol, one of my friends place one weekend. She's married and i am sorry that i din go to her wedding coz i was having a quarrel with someone at that time. Watched her wedding vcd and it was so heartwarming.. Talk abt love.. they have been together for 10 years on and off and finally married. Had a baby girl and she is the most beautiful thing i ever seen.. The song that i am playing on my blog is her wedding song.. i felt vulnerable, to be in love and yet she did it. I saw her life on it. The difficulties she been thru, her failed relationships she had previously did leave scars, yet she drew her strength and persisted to see her life in different way, that she become strong, stronger than me, stronger than anyone becoz of what she been thru. She's courageous to give her life to the person she love, in return, love her dearly. I admired her endurance, her courage, her persistance and her way she see her life which makes me very small. very insignificant. I need to get moving to the next chapter of my life..

**Eruptions of anger boils up to the head and spew out from the mouth. how to stop a volcano from erupting?

My sunset at sentosa.

i am having flu!!!!!

spongebob!

You're spongebob, eveyone's favorite sponge! You
love you job and couldn't pass your driving
test if your life depended on it

What Spongebob Character are you?? (new pictures)
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You made me laff like mad. We were in the NEL line. Thanks, auntie. You asked cub to SHH!!! haha.. Why dun you use chopstix and make yourself deaf? haha.. Anyone who sit opp you talking either on the phone or chatting with someone, you will surely SHHH!! that person. Luckily you havent hear me roar..

~~Failed my stage 2 practical. Changing of gear.. I think i did quite well. Must be the 2 girls who kept stalling the engines made me nervous.. Damn, better luck next time.

Anyone kind enough to donate a pair of tix for me to watch Avril?

Beware of pickpockets when your pants are down?

Another busy week although am not working anymore.. went to first practical last thursday. Damn it was difficult. Thought i was going to fail. Luckily the instructor said they dun usually fail pple unless they dunno how to cycle. Phew. Going for the next stage tmr. I am going to be nervous again.Went for the RTT on sat as well. Took the same book and do. If still fail, i dunno wat to say. Went to watch The Eye 10. We laughed like nobodys business. Its a horror show, for goodness sake. Stayed up till morning then sleep. Call me mtv freak.ha. Cub said if my house have SCV, it will explode. heh. And now i cant sleep... cos i just woke up.. i dun wanna be ghost again... tmr will be a tiring day..

I feel unsafe doing blogger now. Although its free, they are doing upgrading and i am afraid all my posts will get erased...

I am officially out of job when i left transitlink last wednesday. I received a sms from my officer yesterday saying HR A.M had passed away. I was chatting with him when i left the company. He was well. He is just 36. He is not obese. He dun smoke. He dun drink. He have a wife. He have a 3 year old daughter. He lived life positively. He continued learning and upgrading himself for his knowledge. He is a good man, with a kind heart. I was thinking of writing my own obituary when this news came. I was shocked. How can such person leave this world so early? Couldnt it be those who drink, those who smoked, those who see life not worth living, those like me? He who can spend a lil time talking to me. He said " You are still young, some of the things you havent see and think properly. Learning is a never ending process." I learnt that life, is taken away from you when you learn to appreciate it, when you think you shouldnt leave yet and when you embrace it with full of hope. He left. Not from accident. From lung and heart failure.

Give me a title!

Someone said my blog is full of sadness and unhappy things. She said i shud write about something happy. Something that can make you smile. I guess thats when i fall in love. ha. Who doesnt want a fairytale? I cant afford it and I cant find it either. This is life. Its harsh. Its difficult. OR should I dream that I can marry off someone rich and hope that I can be a tai tai soon? Thats crap. Thats for people who think life is suppose to be easy. What does it take to have ones opinion of everything and let them see what you are seeing? What makes it so difficult? Are they so self centered that they couldnt be bothered of what you are getting across cos they are full of themselves? Or because they have their mind of their own that they cant accept other perceptions?