Happy Christmas And Merry New Year!

Wishing all my friends a blessed year ahead! Went to market this morning and found out that there was Watson's in my neighbourhood. Yeh! My dad told me its been opened for three weeks already. That shows that I've neen busy. As usual. I guess this is the time for finding an excuse to celebrate yet again, with another public holiday. Please get get and be merry! CHeerS!

MOS night

Went for the opening. The queue is way longer than hello kitty's. Well, so I joined the queue with faith. I tot, I can do it on halloween's night @ zouk when its full house, I should have no probs getting in this one. No matter what. Pple were leaving in the end, I had a few hiccups with my friends, the queue getting shorter, but it was still stuck. Damn. Finally my time came with the invite that can get me friggin in. For free. The place is friggin big. I got lost finding the toilet. And the toilet is huge. Imagine that. Its totally cool. Main hall, hip hop room, RnB room, Retro room and those redundant rooms for meeting and private functions. I went in with a tour guide, telling me what the rooms are.. heh.. she went for the soft launch party, thats why. So I suppose i badly need a drink to get in the mood for club. Whatever happens, drink & get merry. I had a terrible headache after that. I would love to go there again, with no tensions please. Thank you.

No queues guaranteed


million disco balls at the retro room.

Another wisdom tooth

I just went for an extraction just now. MC for tmr. Yeh. The next two extractions will be major. I can't rem where i left my previous tooth. Its somewhere in the room. I dun rem throwing it away.. or did i? Damn. Now my 2 teeth can't meet.. My mouth is still numb.. reminds me of Deuce Bigalow. ha, except there is no one i can confess my love to. Where is my other tooth?.......

Time Capsule

Finally. I got rid of my container full of memories. Left there for like 8 long years, collecting dust. Tons of letters from the past, made me felt so loved. I had to throw it all away. I need to clear my space. My journals dated from 1996. That was my history. Those whatever tots, feelings I had. Those memeories that I clinged on, of no use cos it will never be the same again. Life's life. My old friend said; Old won't go, new couldn't come. I was waiting for the new to come first then get rid of the old one. ha. Guess it will not happen.
Extracted from one of my old journals;

*Feelings overwhelm me
So blind that I can't see
Love cuts me deeply
Sadness live in it
& I know happiness has left quietly

Sugarfly

Damn my leave was not approved. I had to clear leave before 15th. So I took the 15th. There goes my plan. Or maybe there is no plan at all. I am so consumed by my work and I am suffering from memory loss. Went Thumper the other day. I began to detest and not being able to enjoy myself. Maybe I was not drunk that day. Maybe I was looking for another high. It becomes a routine for me, for my mind, thinking of work the next day. I am completely fine with my work. Meaningless to see who is with who, being seen with whom, "hi, how are you? this is who and who." Maybe I am not with someone else. I tot I can enjoy myself... Maybe I will the next time round. 5 jugs of whatever alcohol please. Maybe I'm just old.

I am so obsessed in making my cat fat.

I am getting a dining set from a friend, friend's friend's friend. At least I am getting something from my wishlist. If it can come true then maybe i will input more. ha. I realised i loan the company van. for free. but, no license. damn. i need one. soon. Eve told me Joyce was going taiwan. Dunno if she went already. for election? Planning to go with dad in april. Then we can flaunt our hokkien speaking skills. heh. my current travel plan i to spend new year overseas. KL? anyone? 30th till the 2nd. 2006. i want a long bus ride. i want to stay in bukit bintang. i want to go bintang walk.

*Different frequencies will lead to electricution.

**Its amazing some people are still around because it's illegal to kill them.

**Get a life of yourself, not from others.

I am getting forgetful. There are so many things I wanted to write but everything is blank now. My pirated memory card. Damn. I need to remember to fix up a dental appt, massage appt,my d&d dinner on 17th Dec, get papers for my printer and buy a new h/p. I need to change my monitor, motherboard and casing. Chinese new year is coming, I have to get some clothes, buy some stuff for the house.I feel like changing my kitchen table, get a big seawater fishtank, change my floor tiles, get a bathtub, okay.. I am thinking too much..

Finally, I know what one of my issues I'm having. I want to write it all down already. I saw a comment @ Today newspapers the other day. It pisses me off. It said the non smokers shud have a right to pour water on those who smoke and invade their space. I was angry. Talking about accomodating. Its the same as being a racist. Dun you have legs to walk away? What about those who burn the joss papers & jossticks? Why dun you pour water over it? What about those who drives? Exhaust fumes? Why dun you put a knob on the pipe? Irritating. Although I am not a chain smoker, I seriously dun agree on that comment. Who do you think you are anyway?

Phuket05

3 days 2 nights.. I had fun. Opening night left me in awe. We went tiger(Thai Girl) show. What those men said were true. They can do anything to their pussies.. blowing whistle, putting in ping pong balls, smoke, opening coke bottles, to putting in 20 razor blades in and taking them out. Not forgetting cocks.. they hit the drums with their cocks.. speechless.. Basically all the performers up there are naked. Too bad no cameras allowed.
Went for shooting and bungy jumping next day. Shooting was ok but the jump was insane! 60metres high. Crazy.. The fear and the excitement. Finally did it. Went shopping after that. Nothing much basically.. the beach is crowded with people. Over commercialized. Disappointing.
Departure day - Went to get a tattoo done. Cheap!

For your viewing pleasure:
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Lalalala

I realised I have been neglecting my blog a lil cos I found my black book. Complicating. Repulsive. I watched Chocolate factory last nite at home. I would prefer Chocolate than Corpse bride. Funny they have the same actor and actress. Low budget maybe. I was thinking about holidaying this coming new year. Wierd how I always think about going away when the year is coming to an end.. I would really want to spend some quiet time... Think I'm getting old. I'm going Phuket next weekend. Company trip. How lucky. Too bad it doesnt coincide with Nation V. Talking about getting quiet.. Guess I can't really go eye cruising.. heh..

Making of Halloween night.

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Getting Married!

I received a call from my ex-neighbour last few weeks. She tried to reach me at home but I was always sleeping. So I asked my dad, She getting married is it? And yes she is. Today is the day. I din expect her to call me on my mobile, asking me to attend. Well, usually people move and forget, living their own lives, getting busy, who knows who is married anyway? Only when we meet on the streets, then we started to talk about casual things, and then after, continue our lives, getting busy again.. Someone whom I always find to hang out with when I was younger, going to each other houses, learning to cook soup from her mother, is getting married. Guess I'm grateful that I'm remembered.

Value?

VALUE = An amount, as of goods, services, or money, considered to be a fair and suitable equivalent for something else; a fair price or return.
Monetary or material worth: the fluctuating value of gold and silver.
Worth in usefulness or importance to the possessor; utility or merit: the value of an education.
A principle, standard, or quality considered worthwhile or desirable: “The speech was a summons back to the patrician values of restraint and responsibility”

*Who decides the value? The value of friends, the relationships, family and work?

Are you destined to be single test?

It's not a shock that you're still single. While you're surely a perfectly wonderful human being, you aren't putting yourself in situations where potential partners can discover your natural charm and magnetism! You're just not helping yourself find a date; you may turn down great opportunities to get to know people out of sheer laziness, set unreasonable standards for dating material, or behave in ways that do not signal "available". Perhaps you are an extremely independent person or you just don't really care if you manage to snag a compatible partner. If dating is just fun and games for you and you don't give a fig that you're single, there's nothing wrong with your casual dating behavior. If you are looking for love, however, it wouldn't hurt to start putting in more of an effort. Let your friends set you up, take some classes where you can meet other singles, and give people a chance before you decide they're not the one for you. As long as you don't cross that fine line between friendliness and desperation, you'll be boosting your chances of making a love connection!

*Do I really have to be attached???

Attention Seeker

Cynical ME


pOrn?


Lantern Festival= Candle Festival?

MY TOy

Us drawn by us

Swing way low till it hits the rocks.

My mood these days are like fuck
Maybe its the stress
Maybe its the work
Maybe its people saying you are incompetent
Maybe its the menses coming
Whatever it is, I HATE IT!

I miss taking pictures

I miss having fun

I miss going crazy

I miss my cheerful self

Maybe I just miss you

I am getting too sane
I lost interest in myself.
You
interest me.

**What is life without faith?
Disappointment?
Because you know how the world really is.
You know how people fail you.
You know how alone you are.
You know eveything is just a passing phase.
You know nothing is forever.
Above all, you know you have faith,
nothing really matters.

Monday

The flu bug has caught me. And it is fierce. I've been infect for about a week and yesterday nite the fever virus paid me a visit as well. I'm weak. WEAK! No matter how loud I am, I cant scare them away! Damn! Its the seventh month. Seventh Month. Maybe because I didn't pay respects to the dead? Never offer them food, burn paper money for them to spend? And help to pollute the earth with smoke, ashes and maybe indirectly feeding the birds. Ok, I am whining already. I am sick. My mucus is flowing out.

Sunday Times

Busy with work lately. Life couldn't be better. Maybe I'm still in the honeymoon period about my job. I realised that I have to get in touch with myself sometimes. Solitary gives you the time to quieten down and listen. Listen to yourself. Work is already time consuming. Friends 'share' your time in happiness, or sadness or whatever. Interacting can be tiring too. Voicing out on different opinions and views on whatever issues. Conflicts come along and there is more to solve. I dun like you, you dun like me, I dun like how she handle things, She thinks you are difficult, and the list goes on. The only thing that you can come to terms with easily is yourself.

**Maybe there are tonnes of issues, but in the end, you are still you. Will you take the person as it is?
I may be far, but that doesnt mean I dun care.

Singaporean

I wonder how patriotic we can get or are we just happy because its national day= public holiday? who really cares? Or just because there is fireworks? With tens of thousands dollars wasted, why no one complain? gone with the wind in like 15 mins? why no one write to forum? why ar? NKF saga got pple complain. Pple willing to donate, then when they know the money was misused, they complain. But when they got taxed because they earn too much, why they dun complain? The NKF director salary so high, the pple complain. The Prime minister salary higher than the director, why they dun complain? Now they want to ask the volunteers difficult questions like how many percent goes to charity, why they must donate. If you dun donate, then SHUT UP! You donate the most a dollar into the tin. How about thinking the food or those few grains of rice you can't eat finish and the green tea you can't drink because too full? Isn't it equivalant? I will be embarrassed if i were to ask how many percent goes to charity when i put in my 20¢ in.

Mankind is usually good, its the mouth thats evil.

Self-opinionated

Everyone is entitled to their own opinions. I totally agree on that. But if the opinion jeopardise the relationship, i would rather keep my mouth shut. I have alot of opinions too. I have a lot of things to say, but there isn't any point talking about it since everything is the way it is. I would have said i dun enjoy so and so's company, what would that make me? A princess? Who do I think I am? Everybody hates everybody. That is why there are so many things to talk about. I rather not talk about it since its my own bunch of friends. You have your own opinion, I have mine. Lets keep it this way. If you wanna make known, I wouldn't mind sharing mine, which I think won't be necessary. Maybe i should stop talking.

Wedneday-OYSTER nite

Went Fish tails to have our oyster buffet. Too bad my cam is not with me.. It went to Thailand and is not back yet. I had 13 of them.. Still not enuff. hehe.. auntie uncle, want to buy oyster, 1 for 1 dollar.. The service sucked though.. Please choose to sit outside if you have a choice.

**Once upon a time...
Love
Trust
Passion
Understanding
Accomodating
Respect
Hard work
**And they lived happily ever after..
Thats a fairy tale cut short. I suppose you can make one fairy tale work if you want to. Meow.

Greatest Regret of this time...

I want to complain! Working as if there is no day and night, the shifts sucked. working till 1130pm at night and then have to go back to work again at 0630am.. for a week! There is an ultimate shift: 0730am-1030pm.. And there is only one break and its only 1/2hr the most!! I was thinking if the money is good, i will grit my teeth and do it, but i was conned!! The operation manager told me the O.T pay is 10 bucks per hour, but it turns out, its only x1.5 of your hourly rate. DAMN! my colleagues said its only 6 dollars. And wats more, our manager doesnt appreciate us at all! She compared us to factory workers and even said we should be grateful the company is paying us O.T. We are in the SERVICE line and are required to work long hours. Not like working in office, having 5 day work week. She even dared us to go M.O.M to check out because in service line, they are not required to pay O.T. She said the first half hour will not be counted as O.T. So its as good as my 1/2 hour break has already returned to them!! She even dared to say the company is good, my foot! Good to her, i think! To think she is married with kids! Damn pissed! i dunno why they can stay there.. i asked some of my colleagues and they dun even know what she was trying to get across from the meeting. Are they dumb? The big boss always come and visit and he will complain how lousy we are. We are humans, not robots, not dogs. Some might say: haiya, work is like that, blah, blah.. i refuse to continue to be like that! Even my mum said the company eat people. ha. not eat people, its eating peoples money. PUI! They were asking me if any of my friends wanna work. Anyone? I've listed out the 'benefits' of this company. Because of all those lies, i rejected a 5 day week job, offering me 1.4 salary.. ARGH!!

Yoga?

Am working at a yoga center now in town.. i have unlimited lessons to learn them. Although working 6 day week and having shift work is not exactly what i wanted but i made good colleagues. Wonder if i can handle that. Anyone interested in yoga can come down and have a look as well as visit me. heh.. =)

When you are fat, you say you wanna lose weight,
when you are thin, you say should get fatter,
when you are tanned, you say you should be fairer,
when you are fair, you say you wanna get tanner,
when you are poor, you say how i wish i can become rich
when you are rich, you say how i wish i can experience life
what more you want???????
ROAR!


Yoga anyone?

i wish my partner is blind
so that i can be beautiful in his mind
but if he finds someone else,
i know he has found another beautiful soul in this life.

Promise Fulfilled

After being late for 3 years, i finally went for my virgin blood donation.. That was my 21st birthday wish.. Always tot i was anaemic because i get dizzy spells occasionally, but everything went well. I was very excited about it, more excited than getting a tattoo done..ha. Still remembered i fainted once when i cut my last finger. Such a big person being frightened by the sight of blood and yet went for donation.. As much as i wanted to see the whole process being carried out, having the injection to numb the area, and then to insert a thick needle, maybe the size of the cotton bud poked in for the transfusion, i decided to look away until everything is was done. Had to press the stress ball to circulate the blood from flowing.. I was happy. Although the hand was abit weak.. now the hand feels like muscle aching..Still, i dared not see how the nurse got rid of the needle in me. It was a very good experience. Too bad the camera is not with me.. if not, i would have uploaded the bloody act.heh..

Pet Frantic

Well, i woke up with a destination in mind with a friend, my dear friend cub. We saw a poster at a bus stop. Advertisements do wonders. SPCA poster. And off we went. Saw a labrador i liked. Name: Captain. He cannot be kept in HDB cos he's big. He was very friendly and he let me touch him too.. Guess he needs some love. So I told him" As much i wanna take you, i have to move in to private property.. If you are willing, lets wait for this wed and see what happens..." Wed lottery..
After that, we went to the notorious pet farm at Lor Halus.. We alighted at farm 2. Walked to farm 3..Saw dogs, cats and fish. Learnt quite a number of things on salt water fish and aquariums.. I believed we walked more than 3km. We were lost. We walked to what seems to be a main road where there are there are trucks passing thru and fro. When we finally got to that road, it was like another world.. as what cub said. The road was hardly visible as it was covered in dust.. there were only trucks that carried sand and stones. Hitch a ride? I wouldnt dare, let alone walk from that road. God knows how much mud bath we will be in.. i will need a pair of goggles. So we walked back again. I was hungry, thirsty and my legs are acheing.. Finally when we walked towards one of the fish farm, one taxi drove in. We were lucky. He picked us up and went to buy his frogs for his fish. He said he was lucky to pick us up. We were finally out of that place.. able to enjoy the air-con and catch our breath but the cab driver was talkative, talking about how difficult it is to get customers, how he would have to pick up cans on the road because of the difficult time he will face when the new mrt line is up, yakety yak... went to changi for dinner after that. After dinner, we went for movies at tampines mall.. Monster-in-law.. Good movie for digestion. What an excursion. But i kinda like it although my legs are still acheing..

Durian Tots

Fancy having durians at 2am in the morning. They were particularly delicious. Ate 9 pieces of them. Wonder why i ate so much.. Maybe its becoz of the timimg..heh.. Was playing solitaire and enjoying the fruit when i was thinking about dating. How dates are getting mundane and boring. Imagine if I were to ask someone out, its either movies, concerts, dinners, or maybe clubbing. Do people still go to parks, walk by the beaches, the old fashion-way? Maybe if i have the transport around. what about something different? I would love to go to camps, visit some of the islands, or maybe bungee-jumping for a change. Maybe my life is mundane and boring already. But then again, its the person that makes the difference. If the feeling is mutual, you will still enjoy it becoz you are with the person you like. Right? Wanna have a date with me? keke..

L.A.Z.Y

I've eaten some lazy pills. Or is it my lazy bones are creeping up on me.

Late nite

Lightning strikes.
We were outside.
We screamed.
Waiting for the last bus to our destination.
Destination which i dunno where.
Destination where i can have my oysters.
Having gone thru such adventurous disaster.
It was fun.
It was my virgin torrential rain outing.
With the umbrella in pink.

Judgemental

Faults are judged.
You are the jury to everything else.
See not only superficial.
Feel not with your hands.
Then you will see you and me are the same.
Fallen.

Sin

7 Deadly sins:
*Lust
*Envy
*Greed
*Sloth
*Wrath
*Pride
*Gluttony

If everyone is free of all these, the person would be perfect. Who is perfect?

**You can never know how important you are to someone's life until someone tells you so.. You are important. You are responsible to someone's anger, disappointment, sadness and even happiness. Your presence. How powerful.

i am feeling lousy. I am lousy becoz i dun feel important and i feel small. Its been a lousy week and i am feeling lousy. I've almost talked to everyone i can get my hands on and they know how shitty i am. i am whining and whining about it. Its the interview that made me feel this way. I have basically nothing. No qualifications and no qualities. I have been sick for the past 1 month and my ears and nose are blocked. How sickening. To everyone: thanks for being there.

Dangerously in love

I love you, I love you, I love you...

Baby, I love you, you are my life
My happiest moments weren't complete if you weren't by my side
You're my relation and connection to the sun
With you next to me, there's no darkness I can't overcome
You are my raindrops, I am the seed
With you and God who's my sunlight I'm blooming, grown so beautifully
Baby I'm so proud, proud to be your girl
You make the confusion go all away from this cold and misty world

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

And I know you love me, love me for who I am
Cause years before I became who I am, baby you were my man
I know it ain't easy, easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication from you to me
Later on in my destiny I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife and I see my whole future in your eyes
The thought of all my love for you, sometimes makes me wanna cry
Realize all of my blessings, I'm grateful to have you by my side

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

Every time I see your face, my heart smiles
Every time it feels so good, it hurts sometimes
Created in this world to love, to hold, to feel, to breathe
To live you
Dangerously in love, yeah

I am in love with you (in love)
You set me free
I can't do this thing called life without you here with me
Cause I'm dangerously in love with you (in love)
I'll never leave
Just keep loving me the way I love you loving me

Dangerously (dangerously)
Dangerous, dangerously in love with you
Oh, I love you, I love you, I love you, I love you
I love you, oh yes [repeat]

Attention Seeker.

How can i be an extreme when i haven't been over the edge? Psychologists always term patients behaviour as a sign of illness that has to be cured. I think its all bullshit. Just becoz they dun wanna spend some time on listening to them, they are quick enuff to label them as sick. Who in the god damn world has the rite to judge them? we can only think that they are just one of the kind. Some can be irritating in our lives and towards our emotions. They just couldnt think straight thats all. Maybe they haven't been thru shit, or maybe they have, thats why they are behaving like that. I could be commiting suicide and yet not die just becoz i need some attention. I can be yelling top of my lungs and yet no one is listening. after all, they just need somebody. everyone does. They just wanna get known, in another way. Pay attention. They need some love although some are indeed loved by others already. I pay respect to those who have committed suicide and indeed died cos they made it. My suggestion: If you really wanna die, do it. Jump. Dun let pple talk you out of it. It defeats the purpose. Taking pills doesnt work cos there mite be a possibility you mite get saved. If you can do it, i salute you cos i am still plucking up my courage to end it although life seems worthless sometimes. they are not crazy, you are not a psychologist.

i seriously think that i havent been blogging abt much abt myself.. abt small little details over slightest thing that get on my nerves. so i guess thats emo blog coz when i am overwhelm by things then i start to write. So here i am complaining abt things that has passed thru in my life, and still i havent died. Weeks have passed and i went to punggol, one of my friends place one weekend. She's married and i am sorry that i din go to her wedding coz i was having a quarrel with someone at that time. Watched her wedding vcd and it was so heartwarming.. Talk abt love.. they have been together for 10 years on and off and finally married. Had a baby girl and she is the most beautiful thing i ever seen.. The song that i am playing on my blog is her wedding song.. i felt vulnerable, to be in love and yet she did it. I saw her life on it. The difficulties she been thru, her failed relationships she had previously did leave scars, yet she drew her strength and persisted to see her life in different way, that she become strong, stronger than me, stronger than anyone becoz of what she been thru. She's courageous to give her life to the person she love, in return, love her dearly. I admired her endurance, her courage, her persistance and her way she see her life which makes me very small. very insignificant. I need to get moving to the next chapter of my life..

**Eruptions of anger boils up to the head and spew out from the mouth. how to stop a volcano from erupting?

My sunset at sentosa.

i am having flu!!!!!

spongebob!

You're spongebob, eveyone's favorite sponge! You
love you job and couldn't pass your driving
test if your life depended on it

What Spongebob Character are you?? (new pictures)
brought to you by

You made me laff like mad. We were in the NEL line. Thanks, auntie. You asked cub to SHH!!! haha.. Why dun you use chopstix and make yourself deaf? haha.. Anyone who sit opp you talking either on the phone or chatting with someone, you will surely SHHH!! that person. Luckily you havent hear me roar..

~~Failed my stage 2 practical. Changing of gear.. I think i did quite well. Must be the 2 girls who kept stalling the engines made me nervous.. Damn, better luck next time.

Anyone kind enough to donate a pair of tix for me to watch Avril?

Beware of pickpockets when your pants are down?

Another busy week although am not working anymore.. went to first practical last thursday. Damn it was difficult. Thought i was going to fail. Luckily the instructor said they dun usually fail pple unless they dunno how to cycle. Phew. Going for the next stage tmr. I am going to be nervous again.Went for the RTT on sat as well. Took the same book and do. If still fail, i dunno wat to say. Went to watch The Eye 10. We laughed like nobodys business. Its a horror show, for goodness sake. Stayed up till morning then sleep. Call me mtv freak.ha. Cub said if my house have SCV, it will explode. heh. And now i cant sleep... cos i just woke up.. i dun wanna be ghost again... tmr will be a tiring day..

I feel unsafe doing blogger now. Although its free, they are doing upgrading and i am afraid all my posts will get erased...

I am officially out of job when i left transitlink last wednesday. I received a sms from my officer yesterday saying HR A.M had passed away. I was chatting with him when i left the company. He was well. He is just 36. He is not obese. He dun smoke. He dun drink. He have a wife. He have a 3 year old daughter. He lived life positively. He continued learning and upgrading himself for his knowledge. He is a good man, with a kind heart. I was thinking of writing my own obituary when this news came. I was shocked. How can such person leave this world so early? Couldnt it be those who drink, those who smoked, those who see life not worth living, those like me? He who can spend a lil time talking to me. He said " You are still young, some of the things you havent see and think properly. Learning is a never ending process." I learnt that life, is taken away from you when you learn to appreciate it, when you think you shouldnt leave yet and when you embrace it with full of hope. He left. Not from accident. From lung and heart failure.

Give me a title!

Someone said my blog is full of sadness and unhappy things. She said i shud write about something happy. Something that can make you smile. I guess thats when i fall in love. ha. Who doesnt want a fairytale? I cant afford it and I cant find it either. This is life. Its harsh. Its difficult. OR should I dream that I can marry off someone rich and hope that I can be a tai tai soon? Thats crap. Thats for people who think life is suppose to be easy. What does it take to have ones opinion of everything and let them see what you are seeing? What makes it so difficult? Are they so self centered that they couldnt be bothered of what you are getting across cos they are full of themselves? Or because they have their mind of their own that they cant accept other perceptions?

At work!!

Yeh!! I am at office doing my blog cos officer is not around and the new girl is taking over my place.=D I have never feel so relieved.. took my RTT yesterday. No confidence..... hope it goes well.. I have almost being free.. Just recovered from fever.. was sleeping at toa payoh alone when i felt so damn cold. Rushed back home in the middle of the nite to see doctor. Shivering like nobody's business. Damn. Wonder if its dengue coming to see me cos i got bites from mosqitoes in my room. Sprayed shieldtox all over this morning when i came to work. Mum's birthday is coming up.. having buffet at toa payoh on the 13th. I realised there alot of photos that i have yet to d/l and am learning to do some layout on my page and songs too.. so many things.. but i am glad i am learning something. =)
I missed the roadtrips i had
I missed the long bus journey where i can think about things
I missed seeing stars at the dark skies
I missed drinking air limau
I think i missed KL
Hint??

**The only way to stop people from talking is to stop talking yourself too.

OUTRAGEOUS!

annoyed

i am so fucking tired of telling you what to do and how to live cos you dun seem to know and understand why are you here for how pathetic and sad can you be if u cant seem to get a life and enjoy it cos after all its yours and not mine

i can only feel sorry for you and hope that one day you can see what life is really all about

SHUTUPANDGETMOVINGALREADY!!!

Sometimes we forget, what are we living for
The goals we had,the dreams we shared
Times passed, we were all grown up
Doing things we dunno what we are doing
Just for the sake of living
The dreams we had seemed to be so cold
As we slowly getting old
Limitations that we all had
Responsibilities we have to bear
Life, can we truly live,
Or just life, entangle us that we can't breathe?

How i wish i could just walk away from all these and start all over again, doing things that i want, saying things i shud shuden say. Thats what the rich do. Thats what i called life, but then again, it would be too easy for me. I just wanna be rich. Who dun want to? But thats how life works. Its never easy. Thats where life mould people to be strong, to be tough and most of all, to know how weak you really are.
Run away. Do something. *ROAR*

I have successfully stayed off alcohol and ciggies on my birthday. How great. But someone unusual is asking me to go clubbing this coming tuesday... Hmm.. lets just wait and see. I am suppose to talk about my mini surgery this afternoon in the clinic at westmall. The ulcer i had under my tongue i had for years had been successfully removed. It has since became a small stone from that ulcer. Now there is a hole on it. To think i took off my stud thiniking that the ulcer would go away, apparently it did not work this way. The doctor had to jab antiseptic under my tongue and he used a surgical knife to cut it open to remove the stones. He even asked me if i wanted to keep the stones. There were two actually. One in my mouth and the other he took it out and showed me. He said this cysts are common. Its caused by the saliva glands that are blocked and that causes cysts. Asked him if he needed to stich up the wound, he said no need. It will heal after a few days. Thank God i can still be able to talk. Ha. Thats abt it. Dunno if there will be a next time for this surgery... Hope not.

mY sOuL!

I'm completely down-to-earth!
You are the most in touch with knowledge. It's the tree of life from which you tap the sap. You know what you want and you know how to reasonably get it.

Virtues: You respect people with plans. When someone has their head on their shoulders, you know that they can see straightforward and keep their eyes on the mark. When it comes to looking at the future, you take a logical approach: what's within your ability? A fortunate attribute that you have is the ability to set a goal for yourself, higher than maybe you feel possible, but still keep yourself within reasonable bounds. You take the time to appreciate those surrounding you and they do appreciate you in return. Decision-making comes naturally to you when you take the time to consider each option. People only come to talk to you when they are looking for a logical, reasonable solution.

Aspirations: You have an idea of what you can do with your life, but you push it up a notch. You need a profession that you can enjoy, so work towards it. You want to live near your friends and family while being as far away as possible. You also want to settle down while working in excitement and variation.

Quirks: You don't appreciate drama queens and they don't appreciate you. When they need help, they won't seek you out because of your ability to see through their overly dramatic predicaments. You have leeway for humor, and sometimes love to participate in it, but when it becomes irrational behavior, others can count you out. Loud noises are bothersome, except when they come from you or your friends.

Factors: Reach for the sky! Don't decide to do something because you're merely good at it, but choose something you might like to do, despite whether you're sure you can master it or not. Don't only save room for a few empathetic friends, but open up to everyone.

Future: When looking for a job, if you work in all of your talents (logic, decision-making, planning, and definitely humor), you'll find yourself happy. Come to a compromise for location; live nearby your friends and take periodic vacations or live farther away and take frequent return trips.



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You can have 101 reasons to get upset, angry or even depressed and not even think of 1 way to make yourself less miserable. Thats because you dun want to. Thats because you want to be upset, you want to be angry and you want to be depressed. How sad.

Hooked~

I've been busy, busy doing nothing.. like work, spring cleaning, upgrading my system, 'reformating' my room.. and all those things are still not really fixed yet. Another thing is that my cat ate up my neighbours bird. How sweet. She must have known the bird is getting too noisy. The satisaction she had on her face after eating up.. i couldn't describe more. Anyway, my neighbour got another bird. But thank God its not as noisy as the first one. Can't tolerate another thing that is nosier than me.
The other reason that i have been busy is because i am hooked on the sims agagin. Bought the full set of it. Absolutely fabulous.
Another thing that i've been thinking... Freedom.. freedom of speech, thats where the gossiping starts. You can say watever you want. Freedom of expressions, thats where the riots come about. You want to be heard. Freedom to love. Thats where you can love whoever you want. But the thing is that you can love whoever you want, but how many 'persons' can you truly love? So love is free, you can love many? Not bad for a slogan.??? Confused.

My cat..

Love is worthless
Love is meaningless
Tell me, how much it is worth?
And how much it means to you to give it all up?

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
I's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Ignorance is such a bliss. Why are you so inquisitive?

Keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer.

i cant comprehend humans.

i dont know how to handle emotions.

i am afraid of complications.

i am sick and tire d of major c..h..a..n..g..e..s.

You wanna have some oranges?

Kill me and make me shut up coz i wanna give up.

Marriage??

Marriage is hard work. Thats the truth..

Cheryl mumbled, "Look, don't you think we both could find someone else we could get along with more naturally, not work so hard?
"I'm sure there are people out there who would be better matches for both of you," I admitted. " I don't think that means that your marriage needs to be shelved to go find them. The odds are you'll end up marrying someone who wasn't better for you at all, maybe even worse. The painful truth is that marriage helps to bring out the areas of our lives we need to work on. You'd just be taking the same flaws into your next marriage. Divorce is just a quick fix. I believe that maximum growth is found in your own marriage. The pursuit of a 'new, improved' spouse is usually an escapist fantasy."


Many people love to live in fairy tales, dun they?

Who would want to have the time to work things out?

Maybe we are not even thinking about marriage, thats why we dun work that hard?

There are so many other things than to just love, who would want to handle more burden when they want someone else to handle it for them?

gOne wiTh tHe Wind..

The weekend passed so quickly that i dun think i did anything at all.. Sat was out since afternoon for theory and went for stephanie's mini concert @ zouk in the everning. Free tix.. After that met six for dinner and was supposedly going to jb but i forgot to bring my passport.. And they went in like 1am in the morning??? crazy pple... Went home and rest.. Sunday.. my lazy day.. Went westmall anyway.. wanted to fix my addidas shoes but the cobbler can't fix it.. damn.. went looking for a battery charger.. cant find either.. heck. ended up grocery shopping again.. latest crave now is making beef patties..ha. Must be mad. Still can't find my oregano leaves. Went ntuc first cos i got the ntuc card but found out they dun sell beef there.. double damn.. still bought some stuff there and went back to west mall again to get my beef.. the queue is like hello kitty queue but i learnt to be patient and went thru it.. Just came back from ec from supper and soon i'm going to work again.. bleh.. Not enuff! My lazy bones said not enuff!






My first Retro Vegetarian Restaurant..






My supper..

ReADinG....

Currently reading this book that that teaches you to be a lil human... its called: If Life is a game, these are the stories.

*If everything in life were perfect, there would be little to learn. It is through adversity and challenge that we discover who we are. Some of us do very little with what we have while others do an enormous amount with hardly anything at all. Perhaps its the person who makes miracles happen and doesn't think twice that truly inspires us to not only be grateful for what we have, but who inspires us to transcend our limitations as well.

One of the late nites again..

Last movie of 2004-Kungfu Hustle. Cant tolerate somebody that is more crappy than me but nevertheless, it was crappy kindda funny. ha.

First movie of 2005-Meet the fockers. Another crappy one. But the focker family is cool. =) Not too bad.

First enrolment-Bike. Been thinking abt it for 3 years and finally its done. Maybe it will take me another 3 years to get my licence.heh..

Was talking to Gatsby. About the world, about the perceptions, about the disaster yet again. Maybe i should try dying of hunger or maybe freeze to death cos i am inhumane. The feeling of waiting to die and yet want to live. Only then i will understand what they are going thru. The pain, suffering, the torture and the hurt. But still, living is still about death ultimately. Old age and illnesses. I would be the one seeing thru pains, the tortures and the hurts of the world before i die off. Which one is better? Enlighten me.

Good Morning! 1st January 2005

Last year when i was going out, i overheard that the esplanade is cancelling the fireworks for new year cos alot of them are grieving for the tsunami victims. A number of places are actually cancelling the celebrations as well. WHat the heck. Although its a big scale thing, lives are lost, lives are fragile, homes are wrecked, earthquake and tsunamis that happened so near to us, its just that its not us yet. The radio said: It happened to the world, it happened to us. Here's my two cents worth. Its all bullshit. Its a natural disaster. We cannot prevent it. We can only avoid it. We have the watever trackter to track watever vibrations of the earth and movements of the volcanoes. Wat happened to that? Wat about man made disasters? Nuclear bombs? War? Iraq? Terrorists? Lives are lost, homes are wrecked too. Wat about the poorer countries that kids dying of malnutrition? Its happening everyday. Arent we suppose to grieve everyday? Arent we suppose to stop partying totally then? Why dun we all become Mother Theresa or even Ghandi to make the world better place then? Maybe thats the hot topic for now, For the news. Maybe it happened near new year. And another thing: Wat about the trees we killed? the earth we stomped onto the ground to build high rise buildings? We can only take control of the world but not the other way round. How ironic. Who are we anyway?