I have successfully stayed off alcohol and ciggies on my birthday. How great. But someone unusual is asking me to go clubbing this coming tuesday... Hmm.. lets just wait and see. I am suppose to talk about my mini surgery this afternoon in the clinic at westmall. The ulcer i had under my tongue i had for years had been successfully removed. It has since became a small stone from that ulcer. Now there is a hole on it. To think i took off my stud thiniking that the ulcer would go away, apparently it did not work this way. The doctor had to jab antiseptic under my tongue and he used a surgical knife to cut it open to remove the stones. He even asked me if i wanted to keep the stones. There were two actually. One in my mouth and the other he took it out and showed me. He said this cysts are common. Its caused by the saliva glands that are blocked and that causes cysts. Asked him if he needed to stich up the wound, he said no need. It will heal after a few days. Thank God i can still be able to talk. Ha. Thats abt it. Dunno if there will be a next time for this surgery... Hope not.

mY sOuL!

I'm completely down-to-earth!
You are the most in touch with knowledge. It's the tree of life from which you tap the sap. You know what you want and you know how to reasonably get it.

Virtues: You respect people with plans. When someone has their head on their shoulders, you know that they can see straightforward and keep their eyes on the mark. When it comes to looking at the future, you take a logical approach: what's within your ability? A fortunate attribute that you have is the ability to set a goal for yourself, higher than maybe you feel possible, but still keep yourself within reasonable bounds. You take the time to appreciate those surrounding you and they do appreciate you in return. Decision-making comes naturally to you when you take the time to consider each option. People only come to talk to you when they are looking for a logical, reasonable solution.

Aspirations: You have an idea of what you can do with your life, but you push it up a notch. You need a profession that you can enjoy, so work towards it. You want to live near your friends and family while being as far away as possible. You also want to settle down while working in excitement and variation.

Quirks: You don't appreciate drama queens and they don't appreciate you. When they need help, they won't seek you out because of your ability to see through their overly dramatic predicaments. You have leeway for humor, and sometimes love to participate in it, but when it becomes irrational behavior, others can count you out. Loud noises are bothersome, except when they come from you or your friends.

Factors: Reach for the sky! Don't decide to do something because you're merely good at it, but choose something you might like to do, despite whether you're sure you can master it or not. Don't only save room for a few empathetic friends, but open up to everyone.

Future: When looking for a job, if you work in all of your talents (logic, decision-making, planning, and definitely humor), you'll find yourself happy. Come to a compromise for location; live nearby your friends and take periodic vacations or live farther away and take frequent return trips.



Find your soul type at kelly.moranweb.com.

You can have 101 reasons to get upset, angry or even depressed and not even think of 1 way to make yourself less miserable. Thats because you dun want to. Thats because you want to be upset, you want to be angry and you want to be depressed. How sad.

Hooked~

I've been busy, busy doing nothing.. like work, spring cleaning, upgrading my system, 'reformating' my room.. and all those things are still not really fixed yet. Another thing is that my cat ate up my neighbours bird. How sweet. She must have known the bird is getting too noisy. The satisaction she had on her face after eating up.. i couldn't describe more. Anyway, my neighbour got another bird. But thank God its not as noisy as the first one. Can't tolerate another thing that is nosier than me.
The other reason that i have been busy is because i am hooked on the sims agagin. Bought the full set of it. Absolutely fabulous.
Another thing that i've been thinking... Freedom.. freedom of speech, thats where the gossiping starts. You can say watever you want. Freedom of expressions, thats where the riots come about. You want to be heard. Freedom to love. Thats where you can love whoever you want. But the thing is that you can love whoever you want, but how many 'persons' can you truly love? So love is free, you can love many? Not bad for a slogan.??? Confused.

My cat..

Love is worthless
Love is meaningless
Tell me, how much it is worth?
And how much it means to you to give it all up?

I couldn't tell you why she felt that way,
She felt it everyday.
And I couldn't help her,
I just watched her make the same mistakes again.

What's wrong, what's wrong now?
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
I's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Open your eyes and look outside, find a reasons why.
You've been rejected, and now you can't find what you left behind.
Be strong, be strong now.
Too many, too many problems.
Don't know where she belongs, where she belongs.
She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Her feelings she hides.
Her dreams she can't find.
She's losing her mind.
She's fallen behind.
She can't find her place.
She's losing her faith.
She's fallen from grace.
She's all over the place.

She wants to go home, but nobody's home.
It's where she lies, broken inside.
With no place to go, no place to go to dry her eyes.
Broken inside.

Ignorance is such a bliss. Why are you so inquisitive?

Keep your friends close, keep your enemies closer.

i cant comprehend humans.

i dont know how to handle emotions.

i am afraid of complications.

i am sick and tire d of major c..h..a..n..g..e..s.

You wanna have some oranges?

Kill me and make me shut up coz i wanna give up.

Marriage??

Marriage is hard work. Thats the truth..

Cheryl mumbled, "Look, don't you think we both could find someone else we could get along with more naturally, not work so hard?
"I'm sure there are people out there who would be better matches for both of you," I admitted. " I don't think that means that your marriage needs to be shelved to go find them. The odds are you'll end up marrying someone who wasn't better for you at all, maybe even worse. The painful truth is that marriage helps to bring out the areas of our lives we need to work on. You'd just be taking the same flaws into your next marriage. Divorce is just a quick fix. I believe that maximum growth is found in your own marriage. The pursuit of a 'new, improved' spouse is usually an escapist fantasy."


Many people love to live in fairy tales, dun they?

Who would want to have the time to work things out?

Maybe we are not even thinking about marriage, thats why we dun work that hard?

There are so many other things than to just love, who would want to handle more burden when they want someone else to handle it for them?

gOne wiTh tHe Wind..

The weekend passed so quickly that i dun think i did anything at all.. Sat was out since afternoon for theory and went for stephanie's mini concert @ zouk in the everning. Free tix.. After that met six for dinner and was supposedly going to jb but i forgot to bring my passport.. And they went in like 1am in the morning??? crazy pple... Went home and rest.. Sunday.. my lazy day.. Went westmall anyway.. wanted to fix my addidas shoes but the cobbler can't fix it.. damn.. went looking for a battery charger.. cant find either.. heck. ended up grocery shopping again.. latest crave now is making beef patties..ha. Must be mad. Still can't find my oregano leaves. Went ntuc first cos i got the ntuc card but found out they dun sell beef there.. double damn.. still bought some stuff there and went back to west mall again to get my beef.. the queue is like hello kitty queue but i learnt to be patient and went thru it.. Just came back from ec from supper and soon i'm going to work again.. bleh.. Not enuff! My lazy bones said not enuff!






My first Retro Vegetarian Restaurant..






My supper..

ReADinG....

Currently reading this book that that teaches you to be a lil human... its called: If Life is a game, these are the stories.

*If everything in life were perfect, there would be little to learn. It is through adversity and challenge that we discover who we are. Some of us do very little with what we have while others do an enormous amount with hardly anything at all. Perhaps its the person who makes miracles happen and doesn't think twice that truly inspires us to not only be grateful for what we have, but who inspires us to transcend our limitations as well.

One of the late nites again..

Last movie of 2004-Kungfu Hustle. Cant tolerate somebody that is more crappy than me but nevertheless, it was crappy kindda funny. ha.

First movie of 2005-Meet the fockers. Another crappy one. But the focker family is cool. =) Not too bad.

First enrolment-Bike. Been thinking abt it for 3 years and finally its done. Maybe it will take me another 3 years to get my licence.heh..

Was talking to Gatsby. About the world, about the perceptions, about the disaster yet again. Maybe i should try dying of hunger or maybe freeze to death cos i am inhumane. The feeling of waiting to die and yet want to live. Only then i will understand what they are going thru. The pain, suffering, the torture and the hurt. But still, living is still about death ultimately. Old age and illnesses. I would be the one seeing thru pains, the tortures and the hurts of the world before i die off. Which one is better? Enlighten me.

Good Morning! 1st January 2005

Last year when i was going out, i overheard that the esplanade is cancelling the fireworks for new year cos alot of them are grieving for the tsunami victims. A number of places are actually cancelling the celebrations as well. WHat the heck. Although its a big scale thing, lives are lost, lives are fragile, homes are wrecked, earthquake and tsunamis that happened so near to us, its just that its not us yet. The radio said: It happened to the world, it happened to us. Here's my two cents worth. Its all bullshit. Its a natural disaster. We cannot prevent it. We can only avoid it. We have the watever trackter to track watever vibrations of the earth and movements of the volcanoes. Wat happened to that? Wat about man made disasters? Nuclear bombs? War? Iraq? Terrorists? Lives are lost, homes are wrecked too. Wat about the poorer countries that kids dying of malnutrition? Its happening everyday. Arent we suppose to grieve everyday? Arent we suppose to stop partying totally then? Why dun we all become Mother Theresa or even Ghandi to make the world better place then? Maybe thats the hot topic for now, For the news. Maybe it happened near new year. And another thing: Wat about the trees we killed? the earth we stomped onto the ground to build high rise buildings? We can only take control of the world but not the other way round. How ironic. Who are we anyway?

Why do people always think they are right when they are wrong?

I seriously think its just another pretty face. What is more to it? I cant tolerate fititious attitudes that make me wanna puke.

Christmas frenZy at Ray's.

1.Waiting to go to Ray's place.. 2.Changing presents.




Ok, its empty.. poh pee tee gong. But some of them are getting filled up..=D

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and the madness slowly begins..




How about birds? Jailbird or love birds?

wiSdom ExtRactioN

24th Dec 2004
Extracted my left upper wisdom tooth today. It corroded and i decided to take it out. What a nice gift. My left knee is bandaged up as well cos i went to fix it. Looks like i'm half paralysed from the left. Thank God my left arm is working. =D

I was thinking the definition of 'Friends' when a theory came up. Friends are like precious stones. You take care of it. Polish it, admire it. Make sure they are nice and you actually enjoy doing wat you did. They are your prized possesion. But one day, one of the stone got a crack on it. Saddening. You had made sure nothing happened to ur stones. You had taken good care of it but it just happened. You dunno why and wat is wrong. The more you see it, the more your heart broke. So you put it one side and decide not to take a second look on it. The stone just sat there, once were ur prized possesion. Friends.

Yes, i'm at home spending my 'Silent Night'. Surprisingly, dad is out for a mahjong session. I cant stand the crowd anymore. Maybe i'm just old. Thinking of the hassle of going home with tons of pple and not having a single vacant cab makes my mind tired. Clubbing.. Maybe, with my blood, still oozing out from the gum and a bandaged knee. Sounds like i'm asking for donation. Ha.


Human jam at Wisma/Taka 3 days before christmas.


That's the only uncle who is not rushing.

ChriStmas!

1. Digital cam-checked
2. Fix my knee-checked
3.Ensure ERS in my account-checked
4. Get a new system- Processing
5. MP3 Player-Still thinking
6. Celebrating it-It doesn't matter cos its the same every year
7.Going bankrupt-Priceless

Gulping down cough syrup and spend my christmas in dreamland. That's something new.
Maybe give a lil thanks to God. He is more true than us. Less complicating and not quarrelsome.

Let's talk about sex, baby.

Well, its not about sex. My buddy at work is asking me why haven't i been blogging, as in writing about stuff.. Guess there are so many things that happened that i dun feel like getting it down on my piece of memory. I've only got like 16MB of storage, my dear. I have to be picky. Well, life isn't sweet and dainty but i definitely can choose to fill it up with junk or not. Taking up my space equates wasting my time. Thought pictures says a thousand words.. She wants a piece of me.. So here goes my whining about the world, about pple and most of all, i remembered she like my journal on TREES.The big event today:Miss Plastic has forgotten to include my bonus in my payslip today. I am suppose to blow my top and show her my brains, but there is really nothing i can do. The worst is that she mite say" Oh, I will put the bonus in on ur next month's pay then." Cruel. There goes my christmas. Well, thats life. Anywayz, work will be piling up soon coz our octopus has left the dept. Buddy will become mad and i will become grouchy. We will have communication error and no reponse from reader and eventually IFCC will become red. Until how long, nobody knows. Let's talk about something else, shall we? Sometimes, i dun wish to go out anymore.. things have changed, pple changed, everything changed. I haven't change. Have you?
When you look back the years, u realised that how you wished time could turn back, but the fact is if you have did wat you did and felt happy about it, would you not be happy that time had passed and is looking forward to more things to accomplish? Why waste time regretting and wanting to start all over again? How true is that. I finished Tuesdays with Morrie. I want to keep that book. I'm tired.