Damn my leave was not approved. I had to clear leave before 15th. So I took the 15th. There goes my plan. Or maybe there is no plan at all. I am so consumed by my work and I am suffering from memory loss. Went Thumper the other day. I began to detest and not being able to enjoy myself. Maybe I was not drunk that day. Maybe I was looking for another high. It becomes a routine for me, for my mind, thinking of work the next day. I am completely fine with my work. Meaningless to see who is with who, being seen with whom, "hi, how are you? this is who and who." Maybe I am not with someone else. I tot I can enjoy myself... Maybe I will the next time round. 5 jugs of whatever alcohol please. Maybe I'm just old.