Wendys
I realise i have yet to see so much and feel so much. As much as i want to, i am stuck in this small cubicle of mine.. How much more can i take when i can't even handle the thoughts i am having, the perceptions i have cultivated? No man think alike. Who would one truly understand another when you are still you?
Sunday, December 27, 2009
Random
The amount of pple in the train during christmas season.
I'm still loving it though.
Heart this. =)
Last years xmas pressie.
Boyfriend and Girlfriend
The 3somes..
And finally.... my precious.
Friday, December 04, 2009
Events, events, events.
Then, its my princess fi...
After that, our little outing... shot by "The Couple"
Notice the giant mentos... here comes the rest of my giant candies...
Finally, prawning with the pros...
Cockporn = Popcorn...
~The End~
Tuesday, December 01, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Pictures^^
The famous Black Pig dinner with gf.
And my VERY FIRST PLAYBOY magazine!!!
The one that i always wanted! Woohoo!!
The one that i always wanted! Woohoo!!
My hot sexy mama!
Saturday, November 14, 2009
Saturday, November 07, 2009
You will never know wat others are talking abt you. People can say you are manipulative, a great actor, entertainer, a bimbo, big fat liar, a cheat, a player, a hypocrite, a watever fuck ass you are. It doesn't concern me. With or without you, my life will still go on. No one lives the way like you do because everyone is fucking different. So please, you either step in, or get out. Thanks for the time.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Monday, October 26, 2009
Quotes I wrote in my notebook but i dunno where is it from.
You are looking at a chess board. Is there anything you can't see? No. But are you guaranteed to win? Not at all, because you can't see what the other guy is thinking.
The more you wanna know everything, the more you get imprisoned by the idea. You get locked in, but you can never know everything.
It is our own mental attitude which makes the world what it is for us. Our thoughts makes things beautiful, it can make things ugly. The whole world is in our minds.
Pre-judging is a kiss of death.
You are looking at a chess board. Is there anything you can't see? No. But are you guaranteed to win? Not at all, because you can't see what the other guy is thinking.
The more you wanna know everything, the more you get imprisoned by the idea. You get locked in, but you can never know everything.
It is our own mental attitude which makes the world what it is for us. Our thoughts makes things beautiful, it can make things ugly. The whole world is in our minds.
Pre-judging is a kiss of death.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
Saturday, October 24, 2009
Books~~
I've read quite a number of books lately. Done with Totto Chan and Yakuza Moon. I've also started to re-read some of the books i had on Paulo Coelho. It makes me feel so different each time i read his books. Brida, The fifth Mountain and currently, The Witch of PortoBello. I'm so gonna make his books complete. His words, his sensitivity.. Marvellous.
Thursday, October 22, 2009
Sweetest Karma
Someone kept whining abt me not posting anything up for these days cos i am sick of ranting all those things that get to me yet i cant do anything abt it. So for once i am gonna so blog how " happiness" i am in now. Fuck the future although this whole relationship is gonna rip me apart years or even months later. How cynical.
Thanks for the sweetest chrysanthemum you have ever made for me.
Holding your hands made me realise how lucky i am to have you by my side.
Resting on your shoulder made me feel that i have someone to depend on.
Sleeping next to you made me feel so secured.
Kissing you made me feel loved.
Hugging you made me feel whole again.
Whatever it is, thanks for accepting who i am, not the person you want me to be.
And I am changing because of you
You made me feel proud of myself and
You are my happiness plate!
LOVES!!
Thanks for the sweetest chrysanthemum you have ever made for me.
Holding your hands made me realise how lucky i am to have you by my side.
Resting on your shoulder made me feel that i have someone to depend on.
Sleeping next to you made me feel so secured.
Kissing you made me feel loved.
Hugging you made me feel whole again.
Whatever it is, thanks for accepting who i am, not the person you want me to be.
And I am changing because of you
You made me feel proud of myself and
You are my happiness plate!
LOVES!!
Thursday, October 08, 2009
Gandhi, my friend.
"What difference does it make to the dead, the orphans, and the homeless, whether the mad destruction is wrought under the name of totalitarianism or the holy name of liberty and democracy?
"An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind".
"It has always been easier to destroy than to create".
"There are many causes that I am prepared to die for but no causes that I am prepared to kill for".
“Whenever, we hurt some other living being through our thought, utterance or action under non-cordial stipulation and non-apt learning, such an impure spirit or act of destroying life of some other one, including the impure tendency, utterance or presuming, is taken to be full of vice of violence. In such a situation, even if there is no sort of violence externally, it intrinsically remains a tendency of violence.”
As a situation opposite to violence is non-violence, we can firmly state, “Total non-violence consists in not hurting some other one’s intellect, speech or action per own thought, utterance or deeds and not to deprive some one of his life.” We can clearly say this in a few words as follows: Abstinence in toto from violence is non-violence.
Gandhi believed that all humans are susceptible to sinful actions and behaviour, and the worst of dictators were essentially the same despite the difference in their lives, beliefs and actions. Despite this, he held firmly that humans had no right to punish each other. He believed punishment to be the responsibility of God.
Some might say, in this dog eat dog world, what he does won't help. He will be bullied, taken advantage of and worst, labeled as a loser.
Being a winner means getting in front of everybody. Earning the most money, being the clever one, a top salesman, staying competive you might say. Thats the fighting spirit. But what have you gained? Its hard work being the top, and you have to maintain the ever stressful lifestyle you are having. Look around you. Slow down. Use your eyes to see. I would say being Gandhi then its hard work. Because he is different.
Be the change you want to see in the world. Thats you.
"An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind".
"It has always been easier to destroy than to create".
"There are many causes that I am prepared to die for but no causes that I am prepared to kill for".
“Whenever, we hurt some other living being through our thought, utterance or action under non-cordial stipulation and non-apt learning, such an impure spirit or act of destroying life of some other one, including the impure tendency, utterance or presuming, is taken to be full of vice of violence. In such a situation, even if there is no sort of violence externally, it intrinsically remains a tendency of violence.”
As a situation opposite to violence is non-violence, we can firmly state, “Total non-violence consists in not hurting some other one’s intellect, speech or action per own thought, utterance or deeds and not to deprive some one of his life.” We can clearly say this in a few words as follows: Abstinence in toto from violence is non-violence.
Gandhi believed that all humans are susceptible to sinful actions and behaviour, and the worst of dictators were essentially the same despite the difference in their lives, beliefs and actions. Despite this, he held firmly that humans had no right to punish each other. He believed punishment to be the responsibility of God.
Some might say, in this dog eat dog world, what he does won't help. He will be bullied, taken advantage of and worst, labeled as a loser.
Being a winner means getting in front of everybody. Earning the most money, being the clever one, a top salesman, staying competive you might say. Thats the fighting spirit. But what have you gained? Its hard work being the top, and you have to maintain the ever stressful lifestyle you are having. Look around you. Slow down. Use your eyes to see. I would say being Gandhi then its hard work. Because he is different.
Be the change you want to see in the world. Thats you.
Yeh!
Finally, went to Ikea Tampines yesterday and swimming!! But i guess after swimming, i ate more than I swam for. Went a lil shopping and bought a few things and yes, my darling changed a new look for me which I absolutely lurve it!! Thanks alot.
The first time we had Subway together. Yum Yum.
Happy Happy Happy! Small lil things that make you happy, if its big ones, it will make you exhilarated!
The first time we had Subway together. Yum Yum.
Happy Happy Happy! Small lil things that make you happy, if its big ones, it will make you exhilarated!
Saturday, October 03, 2009
Jodi Picoult's review
My first Jodi Picoult Change of Heart. Ripped off from Stephen King's The Green Mile. Such disappointment. I always thought Jodi Picoult is quite a good author. Haiz.. Read the first 3 chapters and realised its all so similar to The Green Mile, which is one of my fave shows. Where is the creativity? But I have to finish it up cos that is the only book i have on my hands. Accept it. Or should I pout and keep blaming the author for lack of imagination? Faster read finish and get over it, get a new book. Am looking forward to Toto Chan's The Little Girl At The Window and Shoko Tendo's Yakuza Moon.
Recommended: The Lost Boy by Dave Pelzer.
Recommended: The Lost Boy by Dave Pelzer.
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Testing, got sound not?
Some people are just mentally unsound and they love to make those who are perfectly normal to be like them. So they think they are the special ones. They live in their own little perfect world that no one understands. It is ever so tiring and waste of time. After all, you are nothing but a speck of dust. Wherever you go, you don't belong. So please, just sit one corner and be quiet. Don't bother explaining cos no one will wanna listen to a crazy person. And another thing, crazy people got no friends. They only got oneself and "the other friends" from the perfect world. Unfortunately, YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE who is the scriptwriter, the director and the actress. Normal people can't act as brilliantly as you. Stop recruiting people and ask them to pay their respects to you, crazy bitch.
Monday, September 21, 2009
Ignorance is your new best friend.
If I'm a bad person,
You don't like me.
Well I guess I'll make my own way,
It's the circle,
A mean cycle.
I can't excite you anymore.
Where's your gavel, your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me,
Well sentence me to another life.
Don't wanna hear your sad songs.
I don't wanna feel your pain,
When you swear it's all my fault.
Cause you know we're not the same.
Yeah!
We're not the same
Yeah!
No we're not the same,
Yeah, The friends who stuck together.
We wrote our names in blood,
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good,
It's good
It's good
Well You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.
Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend.
This is the best thing that could've happened.
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it.
It's not a war.
No, it's not a rapture.
I'm just a person, but you can't take it,
The same tricks that, that once fooled me.
They won't get you anywhere.
I'm not the same kid from your memory.
Well, Now I can fend for myself.
You don't like me.
Well I guess I'll make my own way,
It's the circle,
A mean cycle.
I can't excite you anymore.
Where's your gavel, your jury?
What's my offense this time?
You're not a judge but if you're gonna judge me,
Well sentence me to another life.
Don't wanna hear your sad songs.
I don't wanna feel your pain,
When you swear it's all my fault.
Cause you know we're not the same.
Yeah!
We're not the same
Yeah!
No we're not the same,
Yeah, The friends who stuck together.
We wrote our names in blood,
But I guess you can't accept that the change is good,
It's good
It's good
Well You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.
Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend.
This is the best thing that could've happened.
Any longer and I wouldn't have made it.
It's not a war.
No, it's not a rapture.
I'm just a person, but you can't take it,
The same tricks that, that once fooled me.
They won't get you anywhere.
I'm not the same kid from your memory.
Well, Now I can fend for myself.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
How much ar?
How much is it worth for a friendship?
Its either priceless or worthless.
I am poor, so a friend to me is priceless because I have no money to buy them over.
I am rich, so a friend to me is worthless because I have all the money in the world, why would i care to lose a friend or two? I could always gain a few more with money.
Its either priceless or worthless.
I am poor, so a friend to me is priceless because I have no money to buy them over.
I am rich, so a friend to me is worthless because I have all the money in the world, why would i care to lose a friend or two? I could always gain a few more with money.
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Life is nothing but a stage.
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Salut to those fantabulous actors and actresses! You have won nothing but a lifetime of deceit and self-centredness. You have learnt to be selfish and do things that has your own gain. In case you didn't know, you do have alot of friends, friends with benefits so that you don't lose out. You won't be lonely because you will find friends that will entertain you. Best of all, you have learnt the art of manipulation and that everyone owes you and not other way round. You will always find that you are the centre of attraction and that the glorious light is shining upon you. How wonderful life can be when you have achieve the skill of a lifetime? It comes in a package. Once you have the skill, i bet you also know how to be hypocritical.
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–noun 1. a person who pretends to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she does not actually possess, esp. a person whose actions belie stated beliefs.
2. a person who feigns some desirable or publicly approved attitude, esp. one whose private life, opinions, or statements believe his or her public statements.
To always be a Golden Horse award winner, you must always be in the limelight so that people remember you. Your character must be deeply imprinted into peoples' hearts. You must let people know that you are presentable, interesting and clever. Everyone will have full of fun when hanging out with you. Most of all, you MUST have someone's dirty lil secret that people love to hear. The truth always hurts, so its better to hear lies, lies and more lies.
Next will be to be a victim of all situations that is not in favour of you.
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–verb (used with object), -ized, -iz⋅ing. 1. to make a victim of.
2. to dupe, swindle, or cheat: to victimize poor widows.
3. to slay as or like a sacrificial victim.
The world always want to help the weak to show that they are full of love and sympathy. They will take pity of you and show you the care and concern that you needed. So this is the high time to rape them of this emotion and win them on your side. And yes, you gain more friends again. Oh You poor lil thing.. Ultimately, you have won! Congrats! Everything is as easy as ABC, 123! Kudos!!
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–verb (used with object), -lat⋅ed, -lat⋅ing. 1. to manage or influence skillfully, esp. in an unfair manner: to manipulate people's feelings.
Salut to those fantabulous actors and actresses! You have won nothing but a lifetime of deceit and self-centredness. You have learnt to be selfish and do things that has your own gain. In case you didn't know, you do have alot of friends, friends with benefits so that you don't lose out. You won't be lonely because you will find friends that will entertain you. Best of all, you have learnt the art of manipulation and that everyone owes you and not other way round. You will always find that you are the centre of attraction and that the glorious light is shining upon you. How wonderful life can be when you have achieve the skill of a lifetime? It comes in a package. Once you have the skill, i bet you also know how to be hypocritical.
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–noun 1. a person who pretends to have virtues, moral or religious beliefs, principles, etc., that he or she does not actually possess, esp. a person whose actions belie stated beliefs.
2. a person who feigns some desirable or publicly approved attitude, esp. one whose private life, opinions, or statements believe his or her public statements.
To always be a Golden Horse award winner, you must always be in the limelight so that people remember you. Your character must be deeply imprinted into peoples' hearts. You must let people know that you are presentable, interesting and clever. Everyone will have full of fun when hanging out with you. Most of all, you MUST have someone's dirty lil secret that people love to hear. The truth always hurts, so its better to hear lies, lies and more lies.
Next will be to be a victim of all situations that is not in favour of you.
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–verb (used with object), -ized, -iz⋅ing. 1. to make a victim of.
2. to dupe, swindle, or cheat: to victimize poor widows.
3. to slay as or like a sacrificial victim.
The world always want to help the weak to show that they are full of love and sympathy. They will take pity of you and show you the care and concern that you needed. So this is the high time to rape them of this emotion and win them on your side. And yes, you gain more friends again. Oh You poor lil thing.. Ultimately, you have won! Congrats! Everything is as easy as ABC, 123! Kudos!!
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
YOU PISS ME OFF.
*STOP BEING TOO FULL OF YOURSELF WHEN YOU ARE A FOOL YOURSELF.
Am I not doing enough as a friend? You love to say that I don't think before I say anything. What abt you? Everyone have their pride, the words you said hurt people sometimes. As a friend, I don't want to be petty and create a scene. Have you ever put yourself in my shoes and think how i felt? Just because I'm keeping quiet doesn't mean you right all the time. So, am i an easier target for you to vent your anger on? Or am i too tolerant towards you as a friend? If you're unhappy abt me, let me know. Don't get other pple involved. I guess taking things for granted and not being appreciative is you. How I have tolerated your shortcomings and flaws just because thats who you are. You are a friend. I accommodated your fussiness, your complaints, you being a princess. PLEASE, respect your friends. You are not living in this world alone. Before you point your finger to anyone, know your stand and see whether are you perfect? I am not your dog, you don't own me. You, have a great life. Continue being sheltered and live in your shell. Thank you.
Am I not doing enough as a friend? You love to say that I don't think before I say anything. What abt you? Everyone have their pride, the words you said hurt people sometimes. As a friend, I don't want to be petty and create a scene. Have you ever put yourself in my shoes and think how i felt? Just because I'm keeping quiet doesn't mean you right all the time. So, am i an easier target for you to vent your anger on? Or am i too tolerant towards you as a friend? If you're unhappy abt me, let me know. Don't get other pple involved. I guess taking things for granted and not being appreciative is you. How I have tolerated your shortcomings and flaws just because thats who you are. You are a friend. I accommodated your fussiness, your complaints, you being a princess. PLEASE, respect your friends. You are not living in this world alone. Before you point your finger to anyone, know your stand and see whether are you perfect? I am not your dog, you don't own me. You, have a great life. Continue being sheltered and live in your shell. Thank you.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
*If you're so quick to judge others, why don't you judge yourself first?
*If you think you are good, there's always someone better. So don't think too highly of yourself.
*If you haven't experienced what other people have been thru, please shut up.
*Like I said 93640293248740 times, you are nothing and you talk too much. Pls shut up and listen to what you are saying. If it doesn't benefit others, zip it.
*If you think you are good, there's always someone better. So don't think too highly of yourself.
*If you haven't experienced what other people have been thru, please shut up.
*Like I said 93640293248740 times, you are nothing and you talk too much. Pls shut up and listen to what you are saying. If it doesn't benefit others, zip it.
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Another Death...
Is it contagious? When are they taking me then? Its so easy to die, and so tough for those who are still alive. Its my 3rd time going for those wakes this year, and it got me this time. My 3rd uncle whom has been close to my dad all these while, gone just like that. He will always shout to my dad 'Apek!, Ada kena tak?!' when he come over our place. Talking abt 4D.. My dad lost a brother and a good friend. I am upset. My dad is upset. Well, its another family matter, with alot of mouths talking, as always. What do they really know? Will they die if they don't talk? He's already dead.
Monday, June 01, 2009
To those who never hear it from me
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If you have so much time to idle, why dun you think of a way to stop being a parasite? Think of why your mum give birth to you but instead of minding your own business, you are minding others instead? Your mum should give birth to a piece of char siew, at least still can eat. If you are worst than a piece of char siew, you are better off dead.
Alrite! the main announcement for today is IT WAS MY GREAT GRANDMA WHO PASSED AWAY. The wake was at Blk 79 Toa Payoh Central. She was 95. Her name is Mdm Lee Hit Kaw. I didn't know the paparazzi would be so damn freaking interested to know. I would gladly send some of the death certs for verification if they needed one. And by the way, I din ask my great grams to die on a weekend. Or maybe if i have a choice, i should have asked her to die on a weekday so as not to cause a big hoohaa cos its a fucking weekend. The latest news is there will be picking up of my great grams bones later today at 2pm at Mandai Crematorium Hall 3. You won't be able to catch me there cos i have to fucking work. Those who are so interested to know might drop by and ask my relatives if I have been at the wake for the last 2 days. No need to buy offerings cos my great grams is a christian. Thanks. Those who send their regards, i really appreciate it. Those who doesn't, i don't really give a fuck. Just shut your trap.
–noun 1. idle talk or rumor, esp. about the personal or private affairs of others:
If you have so much time to idle, why dun you think of a way to stop being a parasite? Think of why your mum give birth to you but instead of minding your own business, you are minding others instead? Your mum should give birth to a piece of char siew, at least still can eat. If you are worst than a piece of char siew, you are better off dead.
Alrite! the main announcement for today is IT WAS MY GREAT GRANDMA WHO PASSED AWAY. The wake was at Blk 79 Toa Payoh Central. She was 95. Her name is Mdm Lee Hit Kaw. I didn't know the paparazzi would be so damn freaking interested to know. I would gladly send some of the death certs for verification if they needed one. And by the way, I din ask my great grams to die on a weekend. Or maybe if i have a choice, i should have asked her to die on a weekday so as not to cause a big hoohaa cos its a fucking weekend. The latest news is there will be picking up of my great grams bones later today at 2pm at Mandai Crematorium Hall 3. You won't be able to catch me there cos i have to fucking work. Those who are so interested to know might drop by and ask my relatives if I have been at the wake for the last 2 days. No need to buy offerings cos my great grams is a christian. Thanks. Those who send their regards, i really appreciate it. Those who doesn't, i don't really give a fuck. Just shut your trap.
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Friday, May 15, 2009
Hi, How are you?
Dear friend,
If i tell you how you have failed me as a friend, be it your character, your attitude, your everything, how you are so inperfect in my eyes, will you still be my friend? No one is perfect. So please do not set such fucking high standards on who are your friends and who are not cos you are not that great either. Thanks.
If i tell you how you have failed me as a friend, be it your character, your attitude, your everything, how you are so inperfect in my eyes, will you still be my friend? No one is perfect. So please do not set such fucking high standards on who are your friends and who are not cos you are not that great either. Thanks.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Once upon a time, donkeys came out and play!
You are nothing but a living organism in this earth waiting to die.
You are nothing but people make believe that you are something or maybe somebody.
You are just wasting your time.
You think you are something, but you are nothing.
What makes you think you are the best?
You are just a piece of shit.
You disgust me.
You are nothing but people make believe that you are something or maybe somebody.
You are just wasting your time.
You think you are something, but you are nothing.
What makes you think you are the best?
You are just a piece of shit.
You disgust me.