I realise i have yet to see so much and feel so much. As much as i want to, i am stuck in this small cubicle of mine.. How much more can i take when i can't even handle the thoughts i am having, the perceptions i have cultivated? No man think alike. Who would one truly understand another when you are still you?
Friday, October 31, 2008
To whoever
How funny to see your friend give up so easily when you actually been thru the bottomless pit and up. It makes you feel like giving up too. No matter what happens, you will never die. It makes you feel so much worst than dying. Thats the best part of it. Being a coward of not falling in love again and afraid of being hurt. How much tears you cried, we are just human. We are not perfect. Choosing of hurting others or just waiting to be hurt. We have to go thru this cycle over and over again. When are we gonna be clever?
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Thursday, October 09, 2008
Zonked out
I've been having strange tots when I'm zonked out recently. I'm wondering if i was already dead and the scenario keeps repeating itself cos when you are near death, the scenario will not change. Everything seems quiet. The nights i have spent were the quietest of them all as though i was in a vacuum. I'm getting psychotic.