I realise i have yet to see so much and feel so much. As much as i want to, i am stuck in this small cubicle of mine.. How much more can i take when i can't even handle the thoughts i am having, the perceptions i have cultivated? No man think alike. Who would one truly understand another when you are still you?
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Friday, May 30, 2008
Money minded
Somebody said to me "You will be addicted to it. Unless you like addictions."
I like addictions.
I am addicted.
To the impossibilities.
The unknown.
The cursed.
The importance of money.
Its very important.
You will never have enough of it.
Is it an addiction?
It became greed.
It makes you think highly of yourself.
How much is your self worth?
It makes you think nothing else matters.
Someone said " But you are rich in happiness"
I am not addicted to money.
I have nothing.
I am nothing.
I am happy.
Who are you?
I like addictions.
I am addicted.
To the impossibilities.
The unknown.
The cursed.
The importance of money.
Its very important.
You will never have enough of it.
Is it an addiction?
It became greed.
It makes you think highly of yourself.
How much is your self worth?
It makes you think nothing else matters.
Someone said " But you are rich in happiness"
I am not addicted to money.
I have nothing.
I am nothing.
I am happy.
Who are you?
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Wedding!!
First time going to the church wedding, went with all excitement but turns out dead. The pastor sounds drunk, ha. Its romantic but its so dead serious. I felt like screaming with joy when lou said her vow. Woooohooo!!!, but then again, jac said you should respect the church. Screaming with joy doesn't mean not respecting. Its a joyous occasion! Then i told them, pls scream with joy and dun be dead serious when i get married. IF i have the chance, that is. Congrats Lou!
My fave photo
Spasticism acting up..
My fave photo
Spasticism acting up..
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
Contradicting piece of shit.
I wish i have the power to knock some sense to some people. OR maybe i am the one that is senseless. I wish the things will turn out the way i wanted. But that won't be challenging. I wish i could be free, maybe i am keeping myself locked. I wish shallow people will just die, they just don't. I wish people will just show you a their heart and not pretend, but thats too much to ask. What if i say I'm not like the others? That will be just another piece of bullshit. Its neverending same old shit. Thats alot of shit. I have constipation.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
Friday, May 16, 2008
Thursday, May 15, 2008
West Coast Mc
We see each other occasionally and chatted on fone frequently, yet, we still hog on each others blogs. We are mad. Crazy. Cam whores.
Monday, May 12, 2008
Ben and Jerrys
Dublin Mudslide
Chocolate Fudge Brownie
New York Super Fudge Chunk
Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough
Turtle Soup
Chunky Monkey
Current Flavor: Phish Food
Chocolate Fudge Brownie
New York Super Fudge Chunk
Chocolate Chip Cookie Dough
Turtle Soup
Chunky Monkey
Current Flavor: Phish Food
when I say 'i am a christian.' i'm not shouting 'i'm living clean.' i'm whispering 'i was lost. now i'm found and forgiven.' when i say 'i am a christian.' i don't speak of this with pride. i'm confessing that i stumble. and need Christ to be my guide. when i say 'i am a christian. i'm not trying to be strong. i'm professing that i'm weak. and need His strength to carry on. when i say 'i am a christian.' i'm not bragging of success. i'm admitting i have failed. and need God to clean my mess. when i say 'i am a christian.' i'm not claiming to be perfect. my flaws are far too visible. but God believes i am worth it. when i say 'i am a christian.' i still feel the sting of pain. i have my share of heartaches. so i call upon His name. when i say 'i am a christian.' i'm not holier than thou. i'm just a simple sinner. who received God's good grace somehow. -unknown.
Teleconversation
Beng: Eh, you are contagious. I see you put eyeliner, i also put.
Me: Huh? you put eyeliner for wat?
Beng: Why cannot? You go ask jac. She saw me with eyeliner before. Become punk mah
Me: Then you got put accessories or not?
Beng: Dun have lah. You want me to poke people to death with spikes ar?
Me: I can vomit or not? You are butch leh.
Beng: I am not butch
Me: You wanna be girly girl?
Beng: I want to be girly - man
Me: ..........
Mario: 8 days a week
Mario: Wunday
Me: Huh? you put eyeliner for wat?
Beng: Why cannot? You go ask jac. She saw me with eyeliner before. Become punk mah
Me: Then you got put accessories or not?
Beng: Dun have lah. You want me to poke people to death with spikes ar?
Me: I can vomit or not? You are butch leh.
Beng: I am not butch
Me: You wanna be girly girl?
Beng: I want to be girly - man
Me: ..........
Mario: 8 days a week
Mario: Wunday
Thursday, May 08, 2008
Lalala..
Rode in to and fro JB today. Wat an experience! Acting kuku to all things that I haven't tried before. Although its not a near death experience, i am still treasuring my life when i keep saying that life seems worthless. How much pain can you tolerate? By the time i look back at all those small lil things i get upset about, its high time i do something else.
Someone i knew said i look more and more like a japanese. Ha. Just tell me i'm pretty. Being pretty is so shallow. I am shallow.
Someone close to me said i am thinking too much and all the things i think abt are irrelevant. I live in my own world. I am. There won't be another me you can ever find. So love me.
Another someone said that i am standing on the cliff with big strong winds blowing and i would catch a cold if i stay there for too long. I will find a smaller cliff to stand next time when i leave this one.
Someone i knew said i look more and more like a japanese. Ha. Just tell me i'm pretty. Being pretty is so shallow. I am shallow.
Someone close to me said i am thinking too much and all the things i think abt are irrelevant. I live in my own world. I am. There won't be another me you can ever find. So love me.
Another someone said that i am standing on the cliff with big strong winds blowing and i would catch a cold if i stay there for too long. I will find a smaller cliff to stand next time when i leave this one.
Wednesday, May 07, 2008
Flowers wither and die
Like you said, you won't die if you are without the person.
But the feeling is worst than dying.
The feeling of being still alive.
The struggle of keeping it sane.
Not losing out of control
All these makes dying so much easier.
Dying will be an easy option..
But the feeling is worst than dying.
The feeling of being still alive.
The struggle of keeping it sane.
Not losing out of control
All these makes dying so much easier.
Dying will be an easy option..
Sunday, May 04, 2008
Friday, May 02, 2008
Love is.
Love = sacrifice
Love = hurt
Love = pain
Love = is not easy
Love = is a strong word
Love = is
Love = everything
Love = Shit
Its always humans who complicate things.
Love = hurt
Love = pain
Love = is not easy
Love = is a strong word
Love = is
Love = everything
Love = Shit
Its always humans who complicate things.