I realise i have yet to see so much and feel so much. As much as i want to, i am stuck in this small cubicle of mine.. How much more can i take when i can't even handle the thoughts i am having, the perceptions i have cultivated? No man think alike. Who would one truly understand another when you are still you?
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Wala Wala
Went drinking last nite. I am so in love with live bands right now. 2 people drinking 2 jugs. Woohoo!! I wanna get married and create more problems, and more problems and more. Thats wat humans do. They wun be satisfied with their tiny lil lives. My mind will be churning for problems and getting myself fucked up and drink! Live, is so vulnerable. Humans, are so fucked up. Including me. Drink! To the death of all problems! Drink! To the the temporary high and ignorance! Stop thinking abt the unknown and live life the fucked up way it is now.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Definitely Maybe...
Joel: Do you have any feeback forms?
Waitress: (smiles) and walks away.
Joel: No, I'm serious!
Me: Please try the pork cutlet.
Beng: (bites) and spit out.
Beng: Can i have a toothbrush? the meat is stuck in my front teeth.
Beng: (shows teeth) got or not?
Again, the whole restaurant is just us and no one else. They are all just cabbages and brinjals. We laughed so loudly we dun even care.
The show was nice.
The happy ending was you.
I was touched. The rest are inhumane.
Me: You read my blog?
Joel: Yeah. You've been reading?
Me: (shocked) How you noe?
Joel: Cos can tell.
Joel: You shud read more and you will be surprised by the way you write.
Joel: Can become journalist.
Me: (thinking) Yeah rite.
I like the word journalist though.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Saturday, April 12, 2008
Went Serangoon gardens for a drink. Never been there before. I'm a tourist. I believe that when you do something different out of your ordinary life, it gives you a different energy. Although it might have been for another reason.
Me: Then I'm a hello kitty with no mouth.
Beng: (Stares)
Me: (Shake head)
Watever nonsense I can think of, I will say it to you. You will never expect wat comes out of my mouth next cos i am really full of nonsense.
I was reading my past posts and I was surprised abt wat i wrote abt life, abt work, abt friends, abt watever.
Ked: Cool piece of shit
Drink drank but not drunk. Just enough to forget one self. I can laugh as loudly as I want. I can be crazy if i want to. Too bad you are my friend.
I was draining myself out. Self indulgence. Love me.
Jac: There are thousands of different pple out there. You will never know wat the other person is like.
Me: Then I'm a hello kitty with no mouth.
Beng: (Stares)
Me: (Shake head)
Watever nonsense I can think of, I will say it to you. You will never expect wat comes out of my mouth next cos i am really full of nonsense.
I was reading my past posts and I was surprised abt wat i wrote abt life, abt work, abt friends, abt watever.
Ked: Cool piece of shit
Drink drank but not drunk. Just enough to forget one self. I can laugh as loudly as I want. I can be crazy if i want to. Too bad you are my friend.
I was draining myself out. Self indulgence. Love me.
Jac: There are thousands of different pple out there. You will never know wat the other person is like.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
Incapable of Love
When you are in a relationship, when you know its going nowhere, when you know this relationship is coming to an end, would you find someone else first so you won't get hurt that much? Did you just give up the relationship or the relationship gave up on you? What made you fall in love in the first place? Why you do love the person anyway? How the feelings fade away and yet you just let it go. Remember how you fought so hard to be in this relationship? Remember the tough times that you have been through just to be with the other person? The quarrels that made you cry, the joy that made you feel like you made the right choice, the bond that made you closer with her. Yet, you said ' Love, its better to let her go.' Happiness, if you are not capable of giving it to her, wat abt others?